Lazy...no post for today

I am too lazy to update my blog for today...anyway, nothing much happened.

Oh Sis...dad's been trying to call u yesterday and just now, about 11pm + M'sian time. He said no one picks up the phone...I told him maybe u were sleeping. No worries though, nothing important. He just wanted to check how u guys are doing...esp his grandson ;)

Ok, gotta go, have to wake up early to have breakfast with Meow in the morning.

Mar 29 – Misunderstanding…insecure

Ok, continue from previous post. Have to la, not complete for the day yet ma. We had the Nasi Lemak after Meow showered. I think that one packet felt like nothing…it was my second meal of the day, after the breakfast at 8am.

Meow took a short nap while I took out my beads...sorted them. I also modify a necklace with Dzi Bead given by S.Ping into a bracelet. Satisfied…I lie next to Meow who was still asleep…pull his beard until not a single hair visible. Then my mind wandered…dunno how I ended up thinking abt my past…and tears started rolling down onto my pillow. I felt the pain…the hurt…the breakup with my ex. And then I look at Meow, I had this scary thought that Meow might leave me too. Meow woke up…and asked what happened…unable to speak, I just shook my head before I managed to utter “Nothing…not your fault”.

I couldn’t tell him that it has to do with my ex…I mean indirectly. Not that I cannot let go but I still feel the pain, the wound is deep and it is affecting our current relationship with Meow. I kept feeling insecure…that also led to misunderstanding between Meow and I earlier. I was crying on the phone for half hour…we seem to have communication problem lately. But Meow is very patient. I am glad we made up. He sent me a very sweet and touching SMS later…made me smile thru my tears. I guess I was silly after all. Meow said his love for me will never change and will always love me…(conscious mind ask: Can meh ? If wanna change…it will…), but this time, I choose to believe his words…I hope and pray that it’s true…I mean, I am not saying he’s lying but…I hope there will be no obstacles to keep us together.

Mar 29 – Sleepy on a Rainy Day

7.30 am…I was hungry after my last meal 12 hours ago. My aunt woke up, asked her if she wanted breakfast, she said no…but I cooked her instant noodle anyway, I was very hungry since 4am. I had mine…but lose the taste, I think my soup too much….duh !!

Aunt went back to her apartment to rest around 9am…I had a quick shower and refill my hamsters’ food container…called Meow…and was on my bed by 10am but could not sleep even though my head was heavy. I think I finally dozed off an hour later. My alarm went off at 1.45pm coz I wanted to watch my Chinese show…but I reset to 3.15pm…I am too sleepy to watch the Chinese show but am not giving up my Korean Drama at 3.30pm.

3.30pm…I dragged myself out from the bed…brushed teeth…felt as if like I had hangover…but I am glad I get to watch it. The story is getting juicier.

4.30pm…drizzling…I was like sitting in the dark in my living room…till now, 6.15pm, still raining. Meow still busy at work, never mind…I am chatting with Y.Nee and reading blogs as well as writing this…multi-task ma, trained from previous company. Dad’s back…he packed Nasi Lemak for Meow and I. Oh…Meow is here…gotta go la. Take care all.

P/S : Sis, thanks for calling to check on us. Hope Ryan recovers soon.

Update : 'Small' tsunami detected

According to CNN’s latest news, tsunami has been detected in Indian Ocean after 8.7 temblor. So it was not 8.2 or 8.5, but 8.7!!

“(CNN) -- Fifty people were killed and about 300 homes were destroyed on the island of Nias, near the epicenter of a massive earthquake that struck off the coast of Indonesia on Monday, a government official there told CNN.
About 100 people were injured, and many others were believed buried under rubble, Agus Mendrova said.

Half an hour after the quake, an aftershock of magnitude 6.0 struck the same region, the USGS said. Two hours later, yet another struck, this one 6.7.

Officials in Kuala Lumpur issued an official tsunami warning for the west coast of Malaysia and the east coast of Sumatra. The warning has a six-hour window, and is based on the December earthquake, which struck at 9 a.m. local time and was followed four hours later by the tsunami.”

6-hour window…now already 7 hours…should be save liao kua ?

Go click here or here to find out more.

Mar 29 – Quake experience

5.05am now, almost 5 hours since the tremor was felt…not by me, but my aunt and many other Malaysians…it’s raining over here in Bayan Baru.

My aunt snoring away while I have to do something to keep myself awake. She stays in Villa Emas, near the sea. After hearing news on NTV7 that ppl in Penang, Kedah, Langkawi…staying near the coast should evacuate to higher lands…she called me and brought along her small luggage (mainly containing her important documents, medicine, clothings, phone charger) which she prepared since Dec’s Tsunami. And ever since my Sis migrated to Canada, the master bedroom which she shared with my aunt was left vacant and more or less became a store room…so, I ‘forced’ my aunt to sleep on my bed although she kept insisting she wasn’t tired in between her yawns. She had to give in, hehehe. So here I am, writing about what happened earlier…I mean…what I knew la.

I was busy washing hamsters’ cage (after Meow dropped me home) and Meow called me on my hp. He asked if I felt any tremor, coz his mom felt the tremble at their terrace house in Sg. Ara. I didn’t feel anything wor, neither did my dad who was cutting papaya in the kitchen. I tried to call my aunt, but Network Busy…damn…why lines down in times of emergency eh ? I tried calling other friends…also cannot through…then I used home’s fixed line to call Meow later…can wor, but he didn’t pick up ler. My aunt called me, telling me she was ok, gathered with bunches of ppl, mostly in pyjamas at the car park area. Told her to come over, she said no need wor…she will call back once safe in her unit.

I continued to clean the cage and put everything nicely for Yoda and Sky Walker. Then I proceeded to wash my clothes before shower. I was about to tell dad about the quake but he beat me to it, he said his friend called to inform him. I joined my dad watching CNN for updates. They seem to repeat the information, which is good…meaning no major changes. Meow did call me back and said sleepy...zzz soon.

(Rain stopped liao – 5.20am) Then I decided to post about the Earthquake, as I know my sis will be reading (just in case she’s worried). We are fine…no worries. 2am+, my aunt called and came over. She told us that she was watching TV when she heard the toilet’s door creaked open and close. First thought was…Ghost? Aiyaya…but she braved herself to switch on the toilet lights...and saw the face towel on a hanger swaying left & right…but window closed…no wind ma…then she turned over to look at her TV…saw the cables also swaying…like someone trying to hypnotise kind of swing. No shit, this is definitely not Ghost…so, she grabbed her handbag and hp, off to downstairs and gathered with the rest of the residents. She managed to call her neighbours (old couple)…also Senior Citizens…and the husband thought he was experiencing nerve on his knees !

Mar 28 – Meow’s dad’s b’day

My aunt called me before my alarm rang…then she came to take house loan. I had to skip my output…no time…coz my Chinese show about to start. I postponed brunch till 3.15pm…had one piece of Bengali Bread with Beef curry and of coz…my Nescafe ;)

Sako left early to pay the house loan. I continue reading Sunday’s newspapers while watching TV. Stupid HR still didn’t call me. My friend told me HR waiting for updates from my previous managers, to check if they have any issue hiring me again.

I managed to type my Sunday’s blog but did not post. Had to get ready for dinner. Meow’s family eating out to celebrate his dad’s b’day. Meow and I had some misunderstanding…not over yesterday’s movie thing…but other thing which I dun wanna blog. But am glad we are ok now.

After dinner…his nephew walked to me, ‘demanding’ for kiss. U see…he felt that he needs love from us…I guess it’s b’coz he’s not living with his mom or dad. But I wanted to remind him of his misbehavior yesterday. So, I told him…”Yesterday, u called me Stupid Dog, and u didn’t say sorry…so, no kiss for u”. As expected…his usual ‘blackmail’ style, he said “If u kiss me first, then I say sorry”. No way…I shook my head and gave a firm “No, u have to say sorry first”. Then he tried again…and I stood firm. At last, he gave in, he apologised although half sincere but I could feel it took him much effort, judging from his ‘kiasuism’ (cannot stand to lose). So I gave him a kiss on his cheek. There…I am not sure if he learnt anything…but my message was clear…dun mess with me and dun be rude.

After dinner, Meow & I watched a Chinese comedy which he downloaded from internet. Then the rest was blogged in next posting.

Earthquake off Coast of Sumatra

At 12.15am our local time, ppl in Penang felt tremor. I called to check on my aunt who is staying in Villa Emas, she felt it too...but later she said ok, all back into apartment unit. Other friends staying in Sg. Ara, Kg. Jawa, Greenlane also felt the tremor, but my dad I didn't feel anything over here in Sri Nibong.

Watched CNN...turned out the tremor was caused by undersea quake off Coast of Sumatra with magnitude of 8.2 (some said 8.5). Warning of possible tsunami has been issued.

My aunt just called a while ago at 2.15am, she watched our local news and said ppl who are staying near the sea in Kedah and Penang should evacuate for safety. So, my aunt is coming over now.

Other Bloggers felt the vibration as well. They were faster than CNN.

Mar 27 - Jealous

Meow woke me up, I wished I could sleep on…sleeping is one of my hobbies :P
He told me he was bringing his nephew to McD. So we went, paid the parking entry fee…and about to park the car when his nephew became rude…he called me “Stupid Dog” (I know he’s been watching too much cartoon). I asked him to apologise or else no McD for him. Instead of saying sorry, he boxed me continuously. He was stubborn and would not give him. Meow insisted he apologises to me, but the 8yr old kid boxed me even harder (I tell u…if my son…he will have a good spanking on his butt liao). At that time, Meow has parked his car next to a vehicle with a man driver waiting (for his wife) inside with a toddler…and he was observing the whole embarrassing sequence.

Meow’s nephew did not want to get down from the car…so Meow & I was standing there waiting for like 5 mins…until Meow pulled him out. He had to sort of dragged the rascal along coz he wouldn’t want to walk. Meow got frustrated and said to go back…now…problem again, coz the nephew wouldn’t want to go in the car then. Having no other choice, Meow shoved him inside…and the little kid was crying silently like the most pitiful kid…I bet the man next to our car must’ve thought we are bad parents. Duh !

Somehow, I felt a little guilty…perhaps…it’s my fault to have spoilt the kid’s day. He is living with his grandparent coz the parents are separated, maybe a little spoilt by the grandpa/ma…but then…we need to teach him a lesson, not to be so rude. Well, the story continues…back home, he didn’t want to get off from the car…so, Meow has to dragged him out….he then continued crying and pulling the curtain. We drove off for our lunch. Back to his place, I expected his nephew to ignore me or pull a long face…but as I entered the house, he was smiling and waving at me as if the earlier episode never took place. Then I knew why…I saw McD’s value meals on the table…ahh…grandpa took him out to buy. As I went upstairs…I overheard the grandma (Meow’s mom) asked the kid in Mandarin, ”Just now, your uncle took you to McD, not meh?” Like a big KPC, I ‘pasang telinga’ as if my ears can grow longer than Pinocchio’s nose…the little one answered calmly..”Mei you” (nope). No explanation provided…hiding his ‘malu-fying’ misbehavior.

Meow took a nap while I pulled his beard. Then I fell asleep for a while. My ex called at around 4.10pm, asking where I was…he wanted to drop over at my house later. He was waiting for his car to be washed at BJ. Told him I would be free after 5pm coz Meow has to fetch his badminton friends…friendly match at Pg Sports Club. I asked my ex if he wanted me to meet him at BJ, he said no need. So, Meow dropped me off at 5.12pm. I just reached home for about 2mins when my ex called, said he’s at the front door liao.

Showed my ex around…which switch, which keys, the dogs greeted him with a big jump at the door. I passed him the Avon stuff. He was eating some snacks from the table…I asked if he was hungry…he said quite…and said my house got so many things to eat…me not afraid being fat meh ? I told him, I dun really eat…usually…Meow or my dogs eat :p

He said he wanted to watch movie, asked if I wanna watch…and if Meow will be ok. Thinking that since I have nothing to do and no one to accompany for dinner…and guessing Meow should be fine since yesterday he asked my ex to go find me…ok, why not? I dun mind watching ‘Hitch’ another time…I said ok, if he treats…hehehe.

He asked if I wanted to tell Meow about the movie…I wanted to…but I hesitated…coz I am not so sure how he will take it and dun wanna affect his badminton match…so I planned to tell him later at nite.

I thought we were going to BJ, but my ex said he prefer GSC at Gurney Plaza. Ok, whatever, not me driving. He treated me to the tickets..7.20pm. Still an hour to go, where to eat ? He said Chopper Board…eh, I just had that yesterday la. I suggested food court. We had dinner at Chicken Rice Shop. For RM 9.90 set, u get a plate of rice, a plate of chicken, a small bowl of soup, a plate of taugeh, a desert and a regular pepsi…damn full, I didn’t finish my chicken & rice.

Half hour more to screen time, we walked around, went into a shop selling guys clothing. He was looking for shirt. So, I helped gave some opinions. I think he trust my taste. At one time, he was a bit shy when he suddenly realize I saw his topless body when he passed me the shirt to change for another size…ceh…I told him…I’ve seen it, what’s so ‘pai seh’. He ended up buying 3 pieces and we had like 5 mins left. That aunty took her own sweet time to fold the shirts before placing into plastic bag…hmm…and treated us like VIP, came out to send us off, waving and saying nice nice things (dunno cannot hear coz rushing liao).

Luckily we were in time. This time, I am able to observe the show with more details…things that I missed out the first time. At some scenes…my thought were on Meow…and I was glad that I was able to prove something to myself. I mean I was there with my ex, but my heart and mind…with Meow. I smiled to myself. Halfway through the show, Meow called. He has finished the match and asked where I was, told him me watching movie. He said to call him after the movie. My ex mumbled something like “See…told u to tell him…sigh~!”.

After movie, I called Meow, no answer…ex sent me home…Meow called back, said having dinner, asked me to ask my ex accompany me for dinner/supper. My ex (being considerate and afraid Meow misunderstands), said loudly “I am dumping her off…me not free”. So, Meow said he will call after his free dinner at the club, to check if I wanted anything.

Back home, I showered and cleaned my hamsters’ cage. Meow called said he was on the way back, asked what I want, I said no need…I can cook mee. He said to call me before sleep. So, I typed my blog….while waiting…12.21am liao…still no call from him…so I called. I was greeted by a sleepy ‘Hello’. He fell asleep without calling me~! Hmm…I wished him goodnite and proceeded with my updates.

Half hour later, he called me, said I woke him up and couldn’t sleep…then I sensed something from his voice…Jealousy~!

Meow merajuk wor…aiya…cham ler…how ah? I thought ok ma…hmm…spent abt half hour convincing him there was nothing between my and my ex. Sorry Meow…I thought u are ok wan…sorry !

Mar 26 – Small World

7.20am alarm went off, snoozed for 10 mins…then hit the shower…constipation…too heaty I think. Woke Meow up…then we had breakfast nearby. Meow had to ‘tah pao’ 9 packets of Nasi Lemak for his colleagues. I called him after I shower again to check if he managed to punch card before 8.30am…but he didn’t hear my call…an hour later, I called again…this time, he picked up…ok, thank goodness…I was afraid something might have happened…but he was busy ‘kepo-ing’ with his colleagues in the pantry, so he did not hear his hp rang. After that, I managed to sleep with peace.

Noor, an ex-colleague from Agilent called to say hi and asked when can come out to lepak. Couldn’talk much as I had to get ready before Meow came from office. We had quick lunch at BJ’s Chopper Board and was still considered early when we went to BJ Bowl. He joined his colleagues for bowling. YT was there too. I didn’t play coz I wanted to shop. I sat for about half an hour watching them…actually…observing YT. Somehow I felt bored but I didn’t want to give up my seat…who knows if YT will go sit next to Meow when I leave ? But I told myself…no point sitting there guarding…if really wanna happen…it will…so I chose to ignore and went shopping. I went down one floor, 4th level…quite a lot of boutiques…went into almost…I like one particular outlet… WISS…the salesgirl did not tail me around. I enjoyed looking at every piece of clothing in the shop with peace. I once bought an evening gown for over RM 200 there, but this time, I am I didn’t get anything there…I was looking for office wear actually.

I was about to pay for a skirt when my ex called me at a quarter to 4pm…asking if I was home and when he could go over to my house to check out on my dogs. I told him I was at BJ and Meow was bowling. He said he wasn’t sure if he’s free at nite, he was joining his colleagues for swimming and might not be free after that. Told him next day also can. Oh, the skirt with its side pleated, looks nice and reasonable, I was still on the phone when paying…the aunty gave me a RM 5 discount (so nice, I didn’t even asked for any). Too bad, I dun remember which shop liao…got poor memory ma.

I continue to hunt for more clothes…but none caught my interest. 4.28pm, my ex called again…asked where I was…funny…I thought I told him…but I answered again “BJ la”…then he asked,”BJ where?” Hmm…I was at 3rd floor, in fact just reached that level for merely 5 mins. Then ex said he’s at BJ too…waiting for his colleague, also at BJ Bowl…and he saw Meow too. He asked again where my exact location was…so I told him I was standing in front of Jefferson’s boutique and the escalator. He said to wait for him, coming over to join me…but I asked “Why dun I go up and join u guys?” He insisted to find me instead…hmm…a little weird.

We walked around for about 8 mins, looking at Shirt…he said wanna buy shirt for work…then Meow called and said he was at Ground floor. My ex waved goodbye when I was still on the phone…waa…’cabut’ (run) so fast…maybe he didn’t want Meow to misunderstand. I didn’t say anything when I met Meow…he asked if I saw my ex. Then I told him lo. Meow then told me, it was him who asked my ex to find me…so…ok…no wonder la. Later, I teased Meow…crazy, sent my ex over to find me…wa…so ‘tai fong’.
He had McD’s meal, while I ‘curi’ (stole) some of his fries and I had a Choc Sundae (fattening food again).

Back to his place, he had a nap while I surfed some blogs…met a blogger on ICQ. Turned out we were colleagues and he knows my 1st ex. Small small world eh. Then Meow woke up, no time for dinner…we had to fetch his best pal, Roger to his bro-in-law’s (BIL) house to move a big TV over to the BIL’s new condo in Tg. Tokong. But before that, we had to get a trolley from Roger’s bro, another house. Roger’s sis got big fish (BIL), the condo looks nice, and it’s cooling…even though 3rd floor…the fans actually moved without having to switch on. There were 6 bedrooms…from the balcony, we could see a nice swimming pool…felt as if we were away at a holiday resort.

By the time we dropped Roger off, it was almost 10.30pm and I was hungry like shit. Drizzling some more…so, what’s is the best thing to eat when raining ? Bak Kut Teh !! Goodness…within 7 days, we had BKT for 3 times ! No wonder I have mouth ulcer. But the BKT at Perak Road (near ICS computer) nice ler. I like to eat there coz they always have the ‘Or Phooi’ (Yam Rice).

Meow dropped me off…I didn’t stay over at his place coz next morning he has ‘Ching Ming’. He has to climb quite high to pay respect for his ancestors. I hit the bed earliest in this month. By 12am…I was ready to knock out…but too bad…I still have to toss and turn for an hour before I finally dozed off. I envy those who can fall asleep within a minute…I can never learn how to ‘shut down’.

Mar 25 – Unlucky day (no Happy Easter for me)

Luck isn’t on my side today. I was sewing my beads when the HR called. A Malay lady (which later I found out, is the HR staffing manager…and she finally called me after my friend escalated her)…her voice sounded ‘lazy’…uninterested…goodness…it never crossed my mind at that time that she’s the manager until my friend told me. The way she asked me…potrayed herself as very ‘nua’…in Malay…’macam selamba aje’. She called me twice in total…I dun understand, can’t she just prepare her questions before hand ?

My friend called me later, he told me got problem with my package…HR wanted to pay me less…due to some misunderstandings…(that f*ck*r did not ask me and assumed something from my resume…which she then shot at my future boss) I was rather down after that.

Bad timing…bad luck…my Korean drama was on when she called…I knocked over my beads’ containers…hence 3 colours of beads over the cushion and floor…mixed up…I missed my American Idol (coz too upset and forgot to switch channel)…well, not exactly the whole programme, managed to catch the last 5 mins…at least I still know that Mikalah got voted out.

Meow called, told me he wanna buy PDA, I told him what happened…he could feel I was upset. Later he sent me a SMS to console me.

I called my ex asking if he knows the range of salary for a particular job grade, he has no idea.

I lost my mood to do anything…after collecting and separating like 300 hundred tiny beads from the floor…I went to shower, took out my resume and a blank paper…started writing my points…I called back that HR manager…she didn’t pick up her damn phone…so I left her a message…got something to clarify. I understood from my friend that there wasn’t any communication between her and the bosses…KNS !! Which means whatever I told the bosses during my face to face or phone interviews…that f*ck*r has no idea…sigh…if I know…I would’ve utilized my ‘kangkalogy’ skills…bad mistake I made…to have assumed!

I took out calculator, pressed…pressed…pressed…see if I survive if the worst happen…hmm, satisfied…I put on my Korean songs to calm down.

Meow came over…I am glad he was there to sort of console me. Dinner…we had my favourite fattening food…KFC ! Then to Sunshine Square (SSQ), I wanted to buy SKII’s Miracle water…but the salesgirl said only with SSQ card I will get discount…the SKII member card is only to collect points wor…damn ~! So, I did not buy coz I dun have SSQ card ma. Next time I use Bonuslink Card to buy from Parkson ler.

We went shopping…nope…not me…this time…it’s Meow. He bought a nice dark grey long-sleeved shirt (he wanted to buy purple…no way…I told him…look like Malay nya). Next, bought two boxes of briefs and I helped him choose two pairs of socks. Then, I told him it was my turn to shop at the lady’s floor…he said I mustn’t buy more than RM 50.00 wor…coz I have too much clothes liao ( but I defended that most of my clothes old liao…or I am too fat to fit in :P ). I went round…the clothes almost the same since I last went…so I ended up buying Audrey’s Panty…cost me almost RM 20.00 just for a panty…I usually buy from Avon when got promotion. It’s not sexy…just fitting one…but Meow went crazy when I paraded for him to see (at home of coz). He said some of my old ones look like Granny’s panties…duh ~!

We went for supper after some rest. He slept over at my place…this time dad knows Meow’s staying over coz he locked the door and off the lights downstairs when I woke up at 3am+ to check. I didn’t get much sleep…felt pain in my right arm and wrist…maybe coz I dun have place to put them…Meow has quite broad shoulders, so kind of took much place of my single bed. I had to wake up early next day and accompany him for breakfast before he goes to work. He has work every last Sat of the month.

Mar 24 – Repair day

I woke up, express output coz late liao, my show started about 10mins already…I didn’t have proper lunch…I ate 2/3 of 3 days old Rojak. Got a call in the morning (seems like every morning got ppl call me eh) from my friend asking if HR has called me…nope. He has escalated, too bad HR works damn slow…but the boss wants me to start working next Monday if possible.

I realized my hp auto turned off after watching my Korean drama. My plan was to sew my beads while listening to some Korean songs…ended up taking out and putting in hp battery for half hour…I lost count the number of times. Stupid phone, auto turned on when I place the battery and then 5 seconds later shut off by itself. I almost lost my temper, but I did not. I called my friend to give him my house number in case HR cannot get me on my hp num. Then I called Meow to let him know and to call my house when he has finished work…which was like another 15 mins. With little time left, I still get to lie back and enjoy some soothing music while I did some quizzes from ‘Her World’. So, from one of the quizzes…it’s true I am quite a forgetful person…but I would prefer to call it – Selective Memory ! :p

Dad came back quite early, he bought ‘Bengali Roti’. Told him I would be going out for dinner soon…was damn hungry…energy level dropping…Meow quickly bathed and off to BJC to bring two devices for repair (after dinner).

First, DVD player cannot read disc, HK Video said will be ready within 1 week…ok, let’s see if it’s really one week. Next, hp outlet, Elton took my hp to dunno where for about 15 mins or more…said test battery…later he came back, told me software issue. Huh…I doubt so…but whatever…he told me one week…ya, right, last time he told me one week hor…ended up, 3 weeks leh !! Meow told him, if this time comes back still got problem, will demand for new phone, Elton agreed.

Still too early for badminton, we shared a Pure Chocolate (Ice Blended) at Coffee Bean. Then we lepak at Cosmart…I wanted to buy some mini corn for Yoda and Sky Walker but the vege doesn’t fresh. Maybe I buy it tomorrow or Saturday when I go buy my SKII Miracle Water…my member card expiring this Sunday, so better use it…otherwise have to ask Y.Nee to help me buy.

I saw Y.Nee’s SMS only after I used back my old Nokia hp. She asked if I am free next Friday. I didn’t reply her till much later, after my shower. She called me when I was watching Astro…said the occasion is to celebrate 3 ppl’s b’day, including mine. Asked what I want for present wor…aiya, susah ler…give ppl present I know la, receive present…I dun feel comfortable la. So, I suggested to her, no need present, just treat us dinner can liao…but she said must wor….I told her I wanted ‘hong kai tan’ (red-dyed hardboiled eggs).

Haha…still remembered once my b’day, my sis made these eggs (it’s custom for Chinese, good luck for b’day person to eat this red-dyed hardboiled eggs) for me and my 1st ex (his b’day just 10 days apart from mine – Oops…that’s means it next Wed)! And we have this culture to break the eggshell by knocking onto the b’day boy/girl’s forehead while wishing him/her. Waaa…so nice my sis, made us ‘hong kai tan’…so kam thong (touched). With much sincere, she took the 1st egg and knocked onto my 1st ex’s forehead and wished him “Happy B’day”…seconds later…we were laughing away like there’s no tomorrow…hahaha….turned out the egg was half-boiled!! Poor guy…the egg yolk and white started dripping down his nose and glasses…hahaha…he looked so funny and cute :p Hehehe…thanks to sis….but it wasn’t intentional though…hehehee.

After my Chinese series, I cleaned hamsters’ cage and feeling a little tired…slight headache…I think I am coming down with flu maybe. That’s why I am writing this early and hope to get a good rest. Might not be updating my posts for few days. Dun miss me ya. Just in case…have a great Friday and nice weekend.

Mar 23 – Insecure

Sheaw Phing called me in the morning, told me next Sat, ING got walk-in interview. No thanks, me not interested in Sales. She could hear my sleepy voice but surprised I could still talk (told her I slept at around 6am). She said me ‘ho mia’ …no need to work. In fact quite a number of ppl thought so. Well, I can’t blame them…they must be thinking I am rich…hah…if only they know that my $ is getting less by the day and how insecure I feel abt my bank account depreciating day by day. I am not in a hurry to work though, coz I really need this break. U dun always get this sort of rest. I know I am gonna be very busy when I start working…so might as well enjoy my ‘vacation’ now doing what I like or just waste the day with beauty sleep :p

My third aunt came over with the beads and we watched American Idol together over Nescafe :) I am a little disappointed with Anwar Robinson’s choice of song…he could be better. Mikalah sounded a little out of tune to me…my guess is she might be the next one voted out. Let’s hope Carrie Underwood stays till final 3.

I didn’t do any beadwork, just catch up with 2 days’ newspaper in btwn TV programmes. For lunch, I had 2 slices of toasted bread with Tuna again but was hungry by 5pm. Dad came back early today, Sako was still around. Hmm…luckily they didn’t argue or what. Sako left slightly after 5pm and I went upstairs to my room…had my Korean MP3 cd on and dance a little to the songs before I decided to lie on my bed while waiting for Meow to come over. Called Y.Nee to tell her I won’t be collecting the negative (of pix) from her as K.Services have yet to prepare my EA form. Dunno what is taking them so long…even Allstaff had mine ready. Anyway, got about 1 month plus before the submission dateline (Income Tax).

Meow and I had fried rice nearby his house, coz wanted to accompany his bro to buy some furniture stuff (getting married). There’s this cat which goes “Meow ….meow…meow all the way” begging for food. And my Meow “meow” along with it….duh…competition ? Hahaha…!! I think two third of my prawns and ‘char siew’ went into her tummy.

Turned out his bro not free, so we had a short nap. I didn’t wanna sleep too much coz afraid tonight cannot sleep. His PC connection problem wor, cannot surf…played minesweeper till I fed-up, I am not good with games…so I explore his PC, so many files…hehehe. Later he woke up, watched documentary on Chinese art and calligraphy, I watched along. Pretty much a peaceful day huh.

We had roti canai for supper. I asked if he’s having any problem/worries lately. He asked why? I told him I feel he’s not as attentive to me as before…maybe this is what happens ppl get comfortable in a relationship. Maybe I am giving him too much attention…is he suffocated ? I didn’t know how…so my mind wanders while he drove me back. I guess he realised something was wrong coz suddenly he put his hand on my lap. And tonight, he leaned over to kiss me (usually I leaned over) before I got off his car. Heh…I felt reassured, am happy again. And tonight, he said “I love U” first…he didn’t say for few days liao…I like to hear it…I like to be assured, yep…call me the insecure love freak. Later I told him how I felt. I dun want us to take each other for granted. I’ll try my best to make sure history does not repeat. I cannot imagine going thru another heartache.

Meow called around 1am to tell me he’s at GH…gave me a scare…it was a guy who rented a room at his house…have some problem with his bladder. Meow sent his there. I called him an hour later, he just got home. The guy got a jab. I hope Meow has enough rest.

Mar 22 - Bak Kut Teh again

Actually I was too lazy to update my posts but what the heck, I am not sleepy yet (clock showing 4:13am now). Oh, btw, I fell asleep at around 6.30am, so when Gavin called me at 10am, I was like mumbling…lucky thing I can still recall what he told me, nothing important though.

Why slept so late ? Well, since I am still jobless, I am taking this opportunity to enjoy the night ( I am a night person…just like my hamsters, hehehe). I get to surf the net, kepo reading what others posted on their blogs. Oh…it’s so sad that Buaya69's Waggy Tales is closing shop. Hiya…no more ‘cuci-mata’ stories to read…wished he could at least leave his previous posts, too bad…and too late…I cannot even comment, really close shop.

Actually I dun mind working night shift…hehe. I used to work till 2 – 3am on weekends (clear backlogs) and go for late supper, hit the bed when others waking up. I find nite time more quiet and peaceful…except at home, you can hear some stupid dogs (including mine) barking and stupid neighbours’ alarm goes off…or stupid neighbours’ car’s alarm goes off (it happens very often : 3 – 4 times per week, really dun understand them). I am glad I am not studying now, if I got exam the next day, I will be so damn piss off. As for working, at least I still have my Nescafe to ‘ting chu tong’ thru the day.

Aiya, write so much, still not yet touch on what I did for the day…actually, nothing much, pretty much a normal day la. Woke up, output (a must before I do anything else :P) and showered, just in time for my Chinese show (repeat from last nite). Lunch ? What lunch…no lunch or breakfast today. I had a cup of Vitamin drink – Nescafe+Teapot brand Condensed Milk…and a handful of potato chips. Of coz I remember to feed my two sons…they eat often…I think got about 6 – 8 times a day, in btwn their sleep.

I sew my beads…today, no more knots, thank God. But very slow as I was very very careful with the thread. Of coz, I had to slow down when watching my Korean series b’cos I need to read the subtitle ma.

5pm, I decided to build some arm muscles again…yup, ironing lo. Meow called to tell me he’s hungry and to get ready when he finishes work…but told him cannot, me still got about 6 pieces of clothing left ler. So, he had to come in and shower first. Today he looked smart, wearing long-sleeved shirt but I didn’t get to tell him, I was too hot sweating ma.

Dinner…we had Bak Kut Teh again, this time at Relau. Not bad also, the garlic damn kick…of coz, Meow let me eat, but as expected, no kiss…still…I love to tease him. He had to pinch his nose to kiss me…hehehe :p

Halfway watching God of Gambler at his home, he wanna go for badminton…I stayed at his place, otherwise he will be late if he drops me home first. I lepak in his room, with his PC until he came back, shower, then we ‘makan’ again…supper ma. Back to same coffee shop, this time we ordered Fried Koay Teow. His badminton friends were around, we sat at table next to theirs. I took a glance round the two joined tables…hmm…somehow I feel a little awkward…they look much older…some like around 40s and they come in variety of profession (blue + white collar workers). I did join them few times before during supper, felt it’s difficult to have any conversation with them. Never mind, guess my job is just there to post as Meow’s gf.

Back home, 1am+, I got so many things to do ler. I washed hamster’s cage, dry the cage, recycle brochures as the base before I tore tissues into small pieces for the bedding. Refill food & water. Next, wash clothes, bathed…finally rest…oh, take my cleanser pills. While sitting on my bed…fingers itch liao…hehehe…ok ok, I will just read some blogs, I thought to myself…end up…here I am. Waa 5am again…let me just quickly post this and go oink oink. Sako coming over tomorrow to pass me some beads she helped me to buy and also to watch A.Idol.

P/S : Gee...I wonder why I always end up with super long post ? Can't help it la. : p

Vernal Equinox

Ok, turned out that Equinox thing is called Vernal Equinox as Papi mentioned with details some more. Sorry Papi, me too lazy to go search and explain...hope u dun mind me referring to your URL. ;)

Ok, I am very tired now...oops, 5am liao...good morning all...time for me to sleep...my hamsters also sleeping liao. Have a nice day.

Mar 21 – Uncle Visit?

Today, it has been said temperature will be hottest in the year, dunno what Equinox thing...but later in the afternoon, the sun was ‘blocked’ by some clouds and I heard thunder…no rain, too bad.

I had about 8 hours sleep, couldn’t sleep longer although I wanted to, my tummy spinning…took colon cleanser pill before I slept. It was a good cleanse, I felt whatever waste stuck to the wall of my colon was wiped out as well. RM 85.00 for 50 pills (RM 1.70 per pill…ok la. At least I am minimising risk of colon cancer. My brother told me, colon is the place where doctor cannot X-ray, so it’s usually too late when cancer is detected in the colon.

I washed the bowl and refill hamsters’ food. Oh, luckily dad did not make any sound last nite when he saw me taking out the cage. In fact, he looked a little excited this afternoon when I brought Yoda and Sky Walker downstairs.

I caught up with my last two days’ news and comics while watching Astro till 4.30pm. Well, today no time for beadwork. After Korean drama series, I headed back to my room…air-cond ma…waa…can see my little ones also felt at ease…earlier they were sleeping on their backs with four legs (x 2) facing ‘heaven’. Back in my room…round and curled up….’song’ (comfy) !

Of coz I took the opportunity to type my postings (sudah kena complain…Y.Nee said I didn’t update wor). Aiks!!…I didn’t realize got ppl waiting to read ma…I was just merely updating and treated my blog like my diary. That’s y I write so long, word by word that comes straight from my mind ler.

Meow came after work…today he seems to have UV (Uncle Visit…usually when ladies have period, we call it AV – Aunty Visit, and that time usu. bad mood.)…a bit moody but still ok. Maybe he woke up wrong side of the bed kua. He ended up didn’t eat dinner coz the aunty so slow with the ‘siu mai’ and he didn’t wanna throw up during his badminton. He came over to my place 8pm (badminton cancelled, hall occupied), he only had a drink with his friends. We went to buy prawns for his new fishes and I got more sunflower seeds for my two sons. I called P.Lin (inform her B.Nee left key chain with her mom) and Y.Nee (develop photos taken last year) while Meow disappeared for a while. When he came back to his room, he said he went admiring his fishes…but wait…my sensitive nose detected unwelcome smell…cigarettes!! It’s 3 within 3 days…and he promised to Quit !! it’s really upsetting…this time he promised it’s the last…but cannot guarantee when he goes for badminton…duh !!

Had late dinner, Roti Planta (fattening food again) with Teh Tarik. I find that the Roti at Dinas (Sg. Ara) tastes better, crunchier too…costs us RM 3.60 for two person. Came back, dad told me that Yoda and Sky Walker have been climbing (sometimes like spiders – four legs on the ceiling of the cage) all over the cage and falling, and they fought…I told him, it’s normal. In fact, right now, they are doing the ‘spider’ thing and sometimes like cliff hanger…two ‘hands’ hanging onto the steel when their hind legs slipped…I guess they are building up some muscles.

After ensuring my two sons got clean bowl and food, I showered and put on my hydrating mask. Dunno why, got dry and red patches on my face…I didn’t go out in the sun wor…maybe not enough water. I told Meow “Cham liao, ugly liao”…he said “good la, no one will kao (tackle) u”. Teng !!

Yoda & Sky Walker

YODA


SKY WALKER


Wrestling

Mar 20 – Yoda & Sky Walker

Hehe…am not talking about Star Wars but hamsters. Yep, I got myself two male hamsters (I hope they are really males coz I dun see the two big balls but the guy who sold me said they’re male) while Meow bought two fishes dunno called what name, looks like “Ikan Keli’ to me…he claims can grow up to a standard keyboard size or bigger. His fish cost RM 25 each, my hamsters on RM 12 for two.

Meow named yellowish brown one Yoda coz he got sleepy eyes, while the naughty one (darker brown) Sky Walker coz he wouldn’t stop moving about. I hesitated with the names but what the heck, I am lazy to think of names.

Now, was my decision to buy them a haste one ? Hmm…I wouldn’t say so. I missed having one after so many years (I had more than 10 before). And I was dreaming about 3 hamsters in the morning, a cat ate 2 of my hamsters in the dream. Last week, I was drooling over hamsters at ‘Pasar Malam’. So…hehehe…after standing in front of the hamsters cage for 10 mins (like a kid in a toy store) and telling Meow I wanted one, Meow said I should have two instead (got company not so bored).

Now we each have our pets…except that he doesn’t name his fishes. We bought these after dinner. Had ‘Bak Kut Teh’ (claypot pork/meatballs/mushrooms). Every time, I eat BKT, I will eat the freshly chopped garlic with ‘cili padi’ in soy sauce and black soy sauce. Meow hates the smell. I would tease him and try to give him kisses which he avoided damn fast. Hahaha…then I say “Hor…U dun luv me liao is it?”….he would reply “temporary not luv…for one day” :p Haha…just love the garlic, without the garlic, BKT got no kick ma.

Ok, let me rewind back to morning. We had like 6 hours sleep but I think I hardly slept as one of my neighbour’s alarm went off from 1.30am – around 6.30am !! Meow was sleeping but I barely slept…duh !

We had Dim Sum for breakfast. It was damn packed with Chinese ppl. I think got around 70 tables or more there. Damn…our seat was near to the food counter. I felt like eating in the sauna. I came out sweating (I hardly sweat, I mean my body perspire slower than other ppl). After breakfast, back to his place since nearby ma. Then…then…gee, I have amnesia, cannot remember liao (that’s for updating my diary few days later, teng !) Anyway, must be unimportant since I cannot recall. I remembered falling asleep after he went for badminton in the afternoon. What happened after that was written above. Oh, my ex called around 7.30pm and asked if I was at home coz he could drop over for ‘rehearsal’ (with my dogs) after his dinner nearby. Told him I was at Meow’s…so other day lo.

I was busy with Yoda and Sky Walker till 2.30am before I dozed off. Lucky thing they were sleepy as well, coz I know hamsters are active at nite till dawn and sleep thru the day. They can eat, sleep and shit at the same place. Boy, I can just look at them without feeling bored, in fact I enjoy looking at them, feeling happy, calm and sometimes they are so funny I had to laugh.

Mar 19 – Meow upset with me

It’s the first time Meow ignored me. I was taken aback coz it never crossed my mind that Meow would actually be angry at me. It was my fault…Jealousy it the main culprit. I couldn’t help it. Ever since my ex dumped me, I feel fragile. Any human, any thing is a possible threat to my relationship.

Meow came back from supper (after badminton) and told me he’s going jogging with his colleagues in the morning…around 7am…and at that time he informed me, it was around 1.30am. Knowing very well I am not an outdoor person, I wouldn’t join him…but that would mean he will be having very little sleep and most probably back near to lunch time (breakfast with them). He told me it was his male colleague who invited…but later I found out, it was his female colleague (let’s call her YT) who called. I confronted him, he said, one call another, so ended up YT called him.

Now, why I was so upset and uncomfortable over a normal jogging outing ?

1. I kept hearing him mentioning about YT lately.
2. YT is usually the one calling him for any gathering – coincidence ?
3. YT sent him quite a few SMS, even when he was away for training in KL.
4. YT is young and pretty (although a bit plump...said to have bf).
5. I noticed YT likes to stare at him and half the time at me when we went out together. Could that be envious stare?
6. I was disappointed over the sudden arrangement coz I was very much looking forward to spending the whole day with Meow.
7. Meow told me later they wanted to join us for movie. I dun mind the movie, but why so much activities with them eh ?

I can list a few more but never mind…after all, I appeared as the green-eyed monster :[
Of coz I know there are valid reasons…it’s just that sometimes we choose to feel/believe the worst. After all, it was me who asked him to join his own friends more (but I dun like surprises…not this kind…esp. when I was mentally prepared to have him in my arms when I wake up and not finding him away with a potential ‘rival’? Oh oh…I know I am getting sick again). Whatever the reasons…it made me realized something…that I loved Meow a lot and I dun wanna lose him (I was doubting my love for him…I thought I was pouring my love for my ex onto him…but this time, I am sure I love Meow for Meow himself).

Well, we couldn’t sleep till around 5am…we made up and he didn’t go anyway. Nope, I wasn’t really happy that he didn’t go, in fact I did wake him a few times but I guess he was too tired :p

We had late lunch at Gurney’s McD. I met Azian, my ex colleague. She said I looked slimmer….haha…must be my T-Shirt loose kua.

I asked Meow if his colleagues joining us for movies. Saw him on the hp like twice. Later I found out he called a male colleague and then YT…hmmm….ok...ok...this time I had to act dunno…dun care…I hope my intuition is wrong…u know…we women are able to sense what the other is feeling. I should try to have more faith in Meow…I will try. Meow was upset because he said I dun trust his words…he said to me before “I’ll never leave you unless you leave me first”. It was really touching…I am not saying I dun trust him, in fact I wanted so much to trust him, but having gone through so much pain in my previous relationships…made me realise…that promises are sometimes brittle. That’s b’cos we cannot control other factors such as third party, environment, etc. Don’t couples always vow to love one another forever ? Yet...some still part, some divorced. Sometimes it’s better not to promise anything at all…and just be thankful that each day that we are still together.

Turned out that his colleagues have their own programmes, so both of us watched “Hitch” starring Will Smith. A nice romantic comedy. I did not buy any clothes/shoes during our 2 hours wait for the movie to start…what to do, already said will not shop for one month ma.

We were in Gurney from 4pm – 9.30pm. After movie, Meow just drove looking for a place for dinner…the funny thing was…I was thinking about my favourite ‘Char Koay Kak’ at Jelutong (my grandfather’s old coffee shop there – morning there’s market) and I smiled when Meow turned into there and said, “Char Koay Kak” (CKK). Ahh…same channel frequency eh ? It’s usually difficult to find a seat there…esp. near the ‘leng lui thong sui’ stall. The CKK tasted as good as ever, I always tell the guy to “Char Kar Or, Kar Chui, Kar Kiam” (Fry darker, smaller pieces, saltier).

After dinner, back to Meow’s place for a while. Around 12am, my ex called. Oh…what a surprised…ask if I am with Meow, I said yes. He asked us out to ‘Lim Teh” (drink tea), at our old gang’s fav. Place – Nasi Kandar Termashyur (NKT) at Jln. Tengah which we nick named it “Ka Chuak” (cockroach).

Well…few years back, before NKT opened, there was already a small outlet selling Mamak’s food. We liked to hang out there b’cos back then there weren’t other competitors yet (N.K. Kassim Mustafa, Kelante, etc.) and we used to work till late, so that particular outlet was the only place around our area that we can lepak till late. There was once, my 1st ex (my 1st ex, 2nd ex and current bf knows each other) found a little cockroach in his vege dish. He brought his plate of rice and pointed to one of the waiter. To our dismay, that guy used his hand to pick up the insect, threw it onto the ground. He then stepped on it and made 2 – 3 twists with his foot to squash the already dead ‘ka chuak’. What appeared even more amazing to me was, my 1st ex, brought back the same plate and consumed the food, leaving out the vege portion !! Eweee…so u see, whenever we wanted to meet there, we will say “Meet at Ka Chuak”!

Meow and ex ate while I had ‘Teh Tarik’. They talked abt football while I talked arrangement for my dogs (ex to help feed them when I go KL) and abt my new hp and new job. We seemed ok, at least I thought so. But I had a feeling my ex asked us out because I teased him on Thursday nite that he is avoiding us. Oops, yep, I called him and I haven’t been feeling good for not telling Meow. That was why I confessed to Meow today (21st Mar) that I called my ex just to talk…I treated him like one of my friends now. I do call my friends sometimes. Lucky thing Meow wasn’t angry.

Teng !!

After typing so many times...I realised the "ERROR" wasn't really error. Teng ! Anyhow, I will just leave the 2 post there, same story but different version, hehehe.

Mar 18 - Patience put on Test

God is definitely testing my patience. This is the 3rd time I am writing this post. I type type….then ** poof **, everything gone. Fine….I type again…waaa, thot ok liao la, coz it showed…’Publishing’….0%....20%....40%.....”ERROR”….arrgggghhhh !! Cannot be….I have had a lot of tests for the day, enough lo, damn tired leh.

Stressed….stressed !! Speaking about stress…I think lately my Sis a little stressed out, but it’s good that she knows how to ‘lepas' tension.

I will tell u later why I said my patience is being tested, let me begin with my ritual babbling from the start of my day…ya, bear with me if u like my posting…(KS and Jason always complain I am too detailed, writing from the moment I open my eyes till I close them).

I was awaken by a call by my outsourcing agency punya manager. Haa…so nice hor…remind me to go take my EA form….then his tail came out…ask some kepo questions :
“How’s yr new job? Enjoy yr new job? Where are u working at?”Somemore ask me to share with him why so many ppl leaving my previous department…should charge him for consultation fees eh :p

Lunch, a bit heavier than usual, 4 slices of toasted bread with Ayam Brand’s Chilli + Mayonnaise Tuna. I should’ve bought my fav. Spicy Chilli….oily but yummy !!

I thought the bread could last me till Meow finishes work but heck, I was hungry by 4.30pm. Nope, I wasn’t doing any major muscle pulling activity, in fact I had my heavy bumps slopped onto the sofa for hours !! The only muscles that moved were my arm and fingers. I was sewing my beads la. I was only in the second row when disaster strucked. Knot !! Yep…a tiny knot. I spent ONE hour untangling it ler…nope, I did not curse/swear…just kept my cool and nope, I did not reach for the scissors coz I dun wannat cut away the 2-metre long thread. So, I patiently…very very patiently sit there, hunching most of the time, trying to untangle the stupid knot from 3.30pm to 4.30pm. Finally, knot untangled !! 5 minutes later….another knot….and then another knot…and another knot !! But all these still cannot compare to one tiny knot I had last time which took me TWO hours to untangle it.
So, dun think handicraft is easy huh…it’s also quite stressful and requires lotsa patience leh. I stopped when Meow came over…enough of knots for today.

Dinner…we wanted to go down town but we turned back as the coastal highway was jammed, ppl queuing at Penang Bridge going back mainland. We had dinner at Lip Sin instead…eh, got ‘Pasar Malam’ wor. This time, Meow is lucky, he found a van selling ‘Teh Mutiara Tek Tek’ (Bubble Milkshake). The uncle has this cute doll on top of his shaking machine….so whenever he turns on the machine, the cute doll will be shaking vigorously (up & down).

I bought my favourite Keropok Lekor Kelantan (a type of snack/cracker made from fish meat – deep fried) – 5 pieces only for RM 1. I had all to myself as Meow doesn’t like it. Hmm…come to think of it, I’ve been having fish whole day. I ordered Fish & Chips for dinner…not to mention I had a ‘malu-fying (embarrassing) moment then…half piece of my fish flew onto floor (not my fault eh….the fries pushed it down). Padan muka….that’s for having my eyes glued to the TV screen.

Meow decided to go for badminton so that I can glue my eyes on this monitor now…almost 5 hours !! Eh, not my fault…the page/URL something wrong…I had to type again and again ler…usually I will type on my doc and paste onto the page, but me now at Meow’s place ma…thot no problem….ceh….now to be safe (twice bitten shy, thrice…??!!) I am typing on a blank doc first.

OK la, cannot type more, body aching like hell…Meow also back, he tah pao for me…my Char Siew Pao became Kaya Pao…talking abt luck…sigh !!

Weekend liao….have a nice weekend la. Yeah…time to to accompany Meow.

Mar 18 - Patience put on Test

Breathe in....breathe out....breathe in...breathe out....ok....God really testing my patience today (I'll tell u why later). I was busy typing my blog and suddenly....** poof **, everything on the page gone !! Mummy....'hou cham ah' (very pitiful).... !! Usually I will type on my document file first before pasting in the blogger page....but now me at Meow's place....so, I type straight ma....

**boo hoo** :[

I think lately my Sis quite stressed out. But it's good she's using blog to lepas her tension.

Let me talk about beginning of my day first (ya, I know...Jason & KS said I wrote everything from the moment I open my eyes till I close them and me very 'cheong hei' - long winded). I didn't sleep that late today cos awaken by a call from the outsouring agency punya manager. Waa...so nice hor...call to inform me that my EA form ready liao. But, 'ada udang di sebalik batu', he asked me some kepo questions.

How's your new job? Enjoy or not? Somemore ask me to share with him why so many contract workers leaving...hmm...I should charge him for consultation fees >:) And the best is...he said "See la, one day, if u r free, let's come out for lunch". Hahaha...I know la...sounds like Salesppl liao.

Had much heavier lunch today - 4 slices of toasted bread with Ayam Brand's Tuna - Chilli + Mayonnes. I should've bought my favourite Spicy Chilli flavour...oily but yummy. I thought these could last me till Meow finishes work, but by 4.30pm, I was feeling hungry. And this has to do with God testing my patience.

Nope, I wasn't doing major muscle movement activities...in fact I was just sitting there...only parts that moved were my arms and fingers. I was sewing my beads...continue from yesterday. Was merely in the second row when my 2-metre long thread got tangled !! Waa...disaster man !!

One tiny knot...that was enough to keep my heavy butts stuck on the sofa for ONE hour !! No shit....I tell u...I was experiencing bodyache and numbness (not to mention hunger as my food got digested liao)...3.30pm - 4.30pm !! Finally...I managed to untangle the knot...and 5 minutes later...arrggghhh....another knot !! And then another....and another....walau eh !! Nope, I did not cut it, and I did not curse/swear. I kept cool and remained calm....somehow I felt God is testing my patience. Luckily I managed to untangle the knots...these cannot compared to one I had last time, took me 2 hours to untangle that blardy knot. Hah...dun think handicraft is easy....can be quite stressful at times....needs lotsa patience too...still....I enjoy doing it.

Meow and I wanted to go down town for dinner but had to turn back at the coastal highway...jam...ppl queueing to Penang Bridge...so we had dinner at Lip Sin instead. Eh...got 'Pasar Malam' wor. And Meow's lucky today. He found a van selling his 'Teh Mutiara Tek Tek' (Bubble Milkshake). A lot of mui-mui chais buying from the uncle...Meow showed me...ahh...on top of the 'shaking' machine, he placed a cute doll...so when he turned on the machine, the doll was shaking vigoriously, bopping up and down...so cute!!

I found my 'Keropok Lekor Kelantan' (a type of snack from fish meat sliced and deep fried) - 5 pieces for RM 1.00 only. Meow dun like it, so I had all 5 to myself :) Wow, come to think of it, I had been having fish today, dinner...I ordered Fish & Chips ...and half piece of it flew onto floor - my fries knocked it over (who asked me to have my eyes glued to TV?)...not my fault leh....but 'malu-fying' (embrassing) nya...I couldn't help it...I was laughing at myself too.

Meow decided to go for badminton since I now have my eyes glued to monitor :P Waa....going to be 3.5 hours liao...cannot cannot...this is not good...addicted liao...cham ah. Ok, will just quickly post this and rest...while wait for Meow to 'tah pao' Char Siew Pao (Baked buns with a BBQ pork filling) for me....ok, no more fish...pork this time !

Weekend liao hor....enjoy ya...I think I will only update few days later...weekend I usually accompany Meow.

Mar 17 – Foreign songs

I am hooked with Korean series shown at 3.30pm on TV2. Was switching in btwn TV2 & Channel 70 on Astro (American Idol - AI). Sako came over to watch AI. She brought me more beads and cloth base plus special thread. I am quite happy that none of my favourite finalists got voted out.

I didn’t have any proper meal till about 7pm+ with Meow. After dinner (which is also my breakfast & lunch), we came back to our place to kill time. He has badminton…so here I am, enjoying MP3 and trying to move some pictures from my hp to PC, but halfway, the link broke…try rebooting…but still cannot detect…nevermind, will try other day.

(Oh…my fav song is playing…excuse me…**gone for 4 mins and 17 seconds – singing along with Utada Hikaru – First Love **)

Hmm…it’s just so nice and mesmerizing. Oh…excuse me again…Korean - Yang Pa singing now…Algo Shippuyo…

I just love Korean songs…Japanese…French…in fact anything that I dun understand. But Korean songs top my list…songs arrangement and u can really ‘feel’ the singer’s emotion when they sing…makes me feel so ‘high’. If u realize, a lot of Hong Kong/Taiwan artistes’ songs are originally sung by Koreans…even Jacky Cheung, Harlem Yu, Julian Cheung’s songs…just to name a few…their songs are not originally written by their local ppl.

And I always enjoy singing ‘I Believe’…the Korean version. Thanks to Allan for introducing me this beautiful language. Ya, Allan my best pal speaks & writes lots of languages, English, Malay, Mandarin, French, Korean, Japanese and he’s learnt Jawi as well…not to mention our local dialect such as Hokkien, Cantonese, Hainan and God knows what else. He’s very talented in many areas, work, excel, access, singing, acting, languages…etc. He became a Team Leader at the age of 21, and within a year or two, promoted to Manager. He’s one of my best pal…gee…I miss him…hope he is happy now in Xiamen or Korea (which is his next destination).

Ok, back to songs…so, u see…a problem for me when I go Karaoke. I dun listen much to English songs…unless 60s, 70s (exposed when my aunt sang karaoke at home) or 80s…oops like Aunty already. And I only sing a few of Jacky Cheung’s (my one and only Idol) which I memorized…ya la, Banana ma. So most of the time, I prefer to listen to others when in Karaoke. I am more of a bathroom singer…oops…I guess my neighbours know how often I bathe :p

Oh…dun say I dun support local singers…I also listen to Malay songs. Currently, I am hooked with Misha Omar’s Bunga-Bunga Cinta.

Ok, enough about songs. I will just post this and browse around the net. Too lazy to continue my beadwork…tomorrow la.

Mar 16 – Just waiting…

Just when I thought I didn’t get to see Meow, he came over…I guess he missed me too. I was talking to May, an ex-colleague while Meow had Nasi Kandar for his supper. I wished we had more time but he has work in the morning.

I slept early…around 2.30am. Woke up around 9.45am and waited anxiously for the interview call (10.30am). Nope, I didn’t eat anything…too early and too excited to input. After shower, I looked through my resume…anticipating questions the director would be interested. I took out an A4 paper and started scribbling on 3 areas :

1. What were my previous roles/responsibilities in ex-company ?
2. Why I left my ex-company ?
3. Why I wanna join back my ex-company ?

Indeed, I was right, he asked all three questions, nothing more…nothing less. The whole conversation took around 17 mins. I was happy…he mentioned that I seemed to be a keen player (Ahem…I guess my ‘kangkalogy’ skills worked eh). Minutes after his call, my friend called to inform he received positive feedback from the big boss…so now just waiting for offer letter/medical checkup. Still…it’s not time to celebrate yet as you won’t know, anything can happen…keeping my fingers crossed and pray to God.

I was still in high spirits, so decided not to continue my zzz journey. Sent the two resumes to ex-boss…he said KIV wor…hmm…cham la…dunno KIV for how long. I finally remembered to call Micasa for reservation. It’s near to Nikko Hotel where my convo will be held. After that…called K.Services for my EA form…have to collect all my EA forms, need to submit for Income Tax…govt sent the I.Tax forms last year…wanna chase for $ sure efficient wan…but when we chase them, sigh ~~!!

Meow back from lunch, told me through MSN that he saw my ex. Spontaneously I asked “Where?” Oooops !! Mistake…mistake…he asked me “Why every time I mentioned your ex, you seems so interested?” Oh oh…jealous ke? Sorry la…didn’t mean anything wan…my ex cannot compare to Meow…after Meow does so much for me.

My tummy started playing orchestra…waa…2.30pm…ok, gave in, cooked myself IndoMie goreng noodles…my favourite :)

I continued with my beadwork in front of the TV. Called Sako to tell her that the Korean Series on la…she thought only Mon & Tues. She said coming over to watch American Idol…but a little late…making muffin wor. Her Tuna Muffin has carrot and Lime’s leaves inside…taste good. She left at 5pm. Dad came back later, told him got muffins, Sako made…he was like “hmmphh”…well, both of them not in good terms, dunno la…luckily me and my siblings close. But he did try and ate quite a lot…hehehe.

Meow came at 7pm…later than usual. What a surprise, he went to buy saw and wire. He was right…the dead leaves and branch of our mango tree indeed has big worm inside. When he sawed down the targeted branch…he inserted the wire and poke a few times, just in case the worm is still in there. I noticed the whole branch got 3 – 4 holes. If didn’t chop off…will spread to whole tree.

After that, dad asked to cut off another part of the mango tree…coz blocking and too low. Then, like a manager, dad mentioned that the star fruit tree also need to chop off a bit…and me ? I was like a supervisor :p …standing around, acting busy…and helping with some sound effect such as “Aiyoo…eee….**gasp**…can ah….careful lo…ahhh….adui !” That ‘adui’ was because I kena thorns from bougainvillea….looks like a 5cm scratch…Teng !

I told Meow, he passed the ‘future son-in-law’ test…hahaha. It was real sweet of him…he seems to do a lot of things for me without complaint…makes me love him even more.

Dinner, I had fattening food…Pizza…not Pizza Hut, but the local Frankie Pizza. ‘Tah Pao’ sweet corn for myself and dad (kosong...dun like to put butter…anyway without the butter, can store longer in case still too full…which I still am…I think will eat tomorrow la.

Meow wanted to buy the “Chen Chu Nai Cha”…in English dunno call what Bubble Milk Tea ? Cannot remember…but the stall closed by the time we finished our dinner at Supertanker. I suggested maybe we can get one at “Pasar Malam” (night market)…ahh…there’s one tonight at Pantai Jerjak. But it’s a Malay pasar malam…very few Chinese stalls. We did see Ice Kacang & Herbal tea…but no “Teh Mutiara Tek Tek”. Hehehe…he asked me how to translate Pearl to Malay…Pearl – Mutiara, Tea – Teh, and being mischievous, he insisted the word “Nai” is Breast instead of Milk. So, he asked how to say Breasts in Malay…I told him “Buah dada”….nah…not good enough…he asked…got a more naughty or sophisticated word instead? Hmm…I remembered some childhood Malay friends taught me…Buah dada – Tek Tek…so…that’s how we came about with “Teh Mutiara Tek Tek”. : p I dun drink anyway…coz got milk…I only take condensed milk or coffee mate…dun u think of lying to me if it’s milk powder…I can smell the difference.

Saw hamsters…couldn’t resist…no, I did not buy, but I touch touch nya. Cannot la…no time to jaga them la.

Back home…all sweaty from the walk…waste water, but quick bath, mandi kerbau one. And guess what? We ate again…He had Ice Kacang while I had Bubur Kacang…that’s why I am so full now…but gives me a good reason to enjoy my favourite Jasmine Tea. Tea very effective for me…digests very fast.

Meow was tired and fell asleep for around an hour before he went back. And what else…I pulled his beard while he was napping. Now my right wrist a little painful…ya la, afternoon sew the beads…then just now pull beard…and now typing…RSI already.

Tired liao…time to post and kepo-kepo.

Mar 15 – Meow away for the day

When I woke up this morning, it was still AM, not like previous days…hehehe. Reason ? I had stomachache ler. Didn’t feel like sleeping back again, so I went downstairs and made myself a cup of Nescafe to go with Nasi Lemak for brunch.

2pm, Sako came over to take her letters. She lepak till 4.30pm…I told her got American Idol at 4pm…oops, seems like now it’s only Wed & Thurs :P
Anyway, it was good as we get to spend some time together and she told me some stories about her Senior Citizen Club members.

Meow called few times from KL. He’s away for one day training and will be back tonight. As predicted, his flight delayed…Air Asia ma…well known already…always delayed.

I finally started my beadwork for shoes. It’s my first time sewing for beaded shoes and I am glad it turned out ok, although I am quite slow now. My friend called to inform that the future director will have a phone interview session with me tomorrow morning. A bit nervous…let’s hope my ‘kangkalogy’ skills still work. Well, that would mean I have to sleep earlier tonight, no more 4 – 5am.

Meow just SMSed to inform me he has arrived and wants me to accompany him for dinner. Hmm…I can’t wait to see him…miss him a lot. Ok, I will keep my post short today as nothing interesting happens also ma…some more, not really in the mood to type long long.

Mar 14 – Rain in Penang

Morning morning, C.Keow, my mentor from the most recent company called, I did not answer as all calls from that company has the same general number…so I had no idea who called until I listend to my voice message. She wanted to check something which requires my password. Of coz, she took the chance to ‘kepo’ where I am working now. I had to lie lo…b’coz I already told my agency I had to work ma. Found out on Friday, another guy left for ex-company, two more leaving soon…seems like that department is facing high turnover. Within 2 months, 6 left/leaving. And many more actively seeking for jobs.

Karen called me, wanted to know where’s my house so as she can pass me the full moon’s pack. Her daughter 1 month old liao. Then I called B.Nee’s bro’s home, left message about Karen. Called Gigi, Gigi has no idea how to contact B.Nee. I called Gavin after that, to discuss about two potential candidates which I need his help. After so much talking, I still sleepy wor.

Back to zzz…so nice…last nite rained ma. Waited so long for rain…hopefully the Dams area there also rained…otherwise they will have to carry out water ration in April. Chief Minister said maybe Penangites like to bathe 3 times per day…seems like Penangites not taking heed on the call to save water. Hiya…what to do…here got so many Mamak/Nasi Kandar stalls…ppl like to go ‘minum teh’…then pee a lot, and then…Penang got hills ma…ppl go hiking, then somemore a lot active ones…play football/foot sol la, badminton la…and for those indoor ones…yoga, dancing, exercise la…sure sweat, bathe more lo. But hor, I think maybe for those who enjoy spa hor, probably can help a bit, go for spa next month ok…I think SPA kinda waste a lot of water…soak, massage, bathe/soak…dunno…after all, this is just a ‘want’, not a ‘need’. And I think the amount of water they used for pampering the body can feed a poor family for few days liao.

I had my first meal at 4.30pm, ate the Ayamas Karen gave…didn’t feel hungry but just for the sake of filling my stomach. Washed my bathtub, last few days water murky ma…today still a bit. Meow came over to wait for his badminton. He wanted to eat his fav. Maggi Curry Mee…cooked for him one packet. I couldn’t eat, still full.

Told Meow dad asked him to help chop off the branches of our mango and star fruit trees. Kesian, have to buat kerja. He’s ok with it…at least he seems so. : p

7pm, Meow left for badminton, I browsed through Star until dad started smoking his pipe…I went upstairs to online for a while. KS helped me to calculate budget for wedding dinner…and suggested for me to get married this weekend. Haha, must thank him…will think about it…few years’ time la. Hehehe. I got disconnected…Meow came over liao anyway.
I called Y.Nee to check out how she’s doing. She’s indecisive about the job offer from her ex-boss. Asked her to re-think lo.

It started to rain when we were on the way for our favourite Nasi Lemak at Batu Lanchang, the outlet has Liverpool décor all over. I jokingly suggested that Meow goes in topless as he was in Man. United’s jersey…who knows, just in case Liverpool’s fans wallop him. He really took off his jersey…but changed into another spare T-shirt from his badminton’s bag. Ya la, better be cautious…nowadays, so many cases…murder, hit ppl over small matter…hit till die…scary la.

Meow left around 12am…and will call me before sleep. I was still typing my blog when I realize it’s almost 1.30am…hmm…dun tell me he forgot me and already zzz. I dialed his number…he was laughing when answered my call. Guess what ? He was reading Heavenly's Blog. Aiyo…got hooked liao…somemore said I was the one who introduced him…teng ! But indeed, Michael writes well, and his command of English is very impressive.

Mar 13 – Number what?

Meow had to pull me out from the bed. I was having slight headache. He was hungry…waited for about an hour before I finally crept out from my bed :P
I gave him a pack of Mamee to ‘teng chu sin’. It was too late for breakfast and too early for lunch…meeting B.Nee, Mark, Gigi, Will, P.Lin at 1pm for lunch at BB (near Sunshine Square - SS).

We reached SS 20minutes to 1pm. What else…shopping !! But this time, it’s just quick grocery/toiletries shopping. Saw peanut butter jam, like a kid wanting a toy, Meow was like drooling over it. So, we bought a loaf of bread as well…oh and he chose the biggest jar of peanut butter and said he can finish it within 2-3 days.

P.Lin came with a new friend who happens to be B.Nee’s neighbour in her old house. She’s quite pretty except that a little tomboyish. After lunch, we went to ‘clean the drains’ at BJ’s bowling alley. Of course, the guys are better. But we had fun laughing at each other and ourselves. After bowling, I went over to say hi to B.Nee’s mom (they have a shop in BJ).

Meow and I decided not to leave yet…and I was thirsty….and hungry for McD’s fries. Goodness, Coffee Bean (C.B.) was really packed…luckily Meow saw a place. I ordered a piece of Choc Fudge cake and Sunrise as I dun like the Coffee at C.B. Too bad they dun have Starbucks in B.Baru. Waited for 2 – 3 years liao…hopefully they will have an outlet nearby SOON ! Then I can enjoy my fav. Frap. Espresso.

I went to ‘tah pao’ McD’s large fries to enjoy with the cake and Sunrise. Shared with Meow la…not eating all to myself.

Back to his place, I was happy to kepo some blogs, while Meow washed his 2 cars. His dad asked us to join in for dinner. It turned out that his younger brother is getting married this year-end and his fiancé’s parents came out to discuss on the wedding arrangement. Thank goodness no one asked about us. We were just happy eating the delicious ‘choo-char’ at Sg. Ara Seafood. It’s nice and always crowded.

We spent some time together after dinner. Dunno how we came to the topic…Meow asked me he is number what….he was showing 5 fingers…I looked…and started counting…he was a bit jealous and upset when I pointed to the second finger on the second hand : P

I am not sure how guys will react or feel. But I am glad he still loves me the same (I hope so) after I revealed some of my past relationships. Well, everyone has a pass right…what’s more important is the present and future. It doesn’t really matter which number we are in…as long as u hope and work for the last position ! ;)

Mar 12 - Tired

I was still sleepy when Meow woke me up, I think I barely slept. Later he had to go back office and then to customer’s place. His job requires him to work closely with a female colleague, the programmer, SL. I dunno what came over me, but jealousy crept over and he sensed it when I asked if SL has bf. What to do, I tend to feel insecure after breaking off with my ex. I know I shouldn’t be too concern, I know Meow was just joking and did not mean it; yet I got too emotional and acted like a child. He was so understanding and always assuring me. Secretly though, I like it when he hugged me, showered me with convincing kisses, especially when I cried ‘unnecessarily’. He would wipe away my tears, telling me I am his only one and held me tight. I do not know if I can ever be ‘normal’ again.

We had early lunch, I would say, brunch instead at 11.30am. On the way to Supertanker, P.Lin SMSed me, tomorrow lunch with B.Nee & Mark, Gigi & Will, asked me to suggest the venue. I called her as I do not want situation like yesterday to happen again. KNS, she said she busy driving, ask me to coordinate ! So, I called B.Nee and Gigi to confirm time and place and lastly called PPK girl to inform her. Memang ‘chuan’ (tiring) but no choice, dare not trust her liao.

After lunch…went over to my place to kill time. He had to visit customer’s place, meeting his two other colleagues at 1.30pm. After he left, I continued watching Astro, it was showing the Tsunami clips. I did not have the nap as planned, eyes still glued to TV screen, then monitor screen until too tired.

I broke a mirror…No, not ‘chiu pao kheng’ (loosely translate is – look till mirror breaks) but accidentally knocked….duh…is it bad luck ? Coz I heard a myth that it will cause 7 years of bad luck…nah, I am feeling good and lucky nowadays. Just worried about Meow. He called to inform that customer’s pc problem still not resolved…dunno what time can finish. I tried to nap…7.30pm, Meow said waiting for SL to finish her portion, poor thing, he damn hungry…me too. While waiting for him, I had a short nap. An hour later, I found out dad still not home…so I called him…on the way back wor…ok, at least I know he’s safe.

I had dinner only at around 9.30pm, second meal of the day. Had ‘choo-char’ (rice with dishes) at ‘Leng’ Aunty’s (outside my house there) with Meow and his colleagues. I couldn’t eat much as tummy filled with too much air liao. ‘Leng’ Aunty (nicknamed her ‘pretty’ aunty) must have wondered…me changed bf again…ya, she has seen my two other Ex Bfs.

After dinner, Meow showered. He copied some songs over to my hp while I had my bath. He let me use the PC after that, I began typing my blog…halfway…I turned around…aiya…Meow fell asleep wor…on my bed. Never mind, will join in later, but have to wait for dad to sleep first as I need to off the lights and lock the door. Dad went to sleep only at 3am. I was dead tired and glad to be on the bed.

Bracelets

Some of the bracelets I made when free.
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Mar 11 – Let Go More

I was waiting in the car for Meow when I saw this very cute girl at a counter. Suddenly I saw my ex passed by. He was eyeing that cute girl. She too was stealing glances at him. Then my ex went right up to her and approached her. Waa…acting a bit cool…as usual, his ego very big one. Weird thing is…he is buying the service. He let her cut his fingernails. But I know my ex never grew fingernails…he would bite off all his fingernails…a bad habit, which I always complained about. He was sitting sideways, not daring to face her and trying to appear cool. She too, dare not look at him…focusing on his nails. After she finished with his nails, he paid and started to leave the place but look kind of hesitant. I was observing the whole event. As he was walking away, the girl gave a small chase and called out to him…then they embraced in a hug. I was happy…that moment, I felt relieved and happy for them. Why relief ? Hah….at least I know he’s not with that C.M.Ling…the spoilt, wild, materialistic girl. There weren’t any feelings of envy or jealousy. I was happy for myself. Although this is just a dream, it proved that I was able to let go MORE, if not All yet. Ya la…dream nya la…dunno, maybe it’s a sign letting me know I am able to let go more of my ex as day goes by. : )

I continued my sleep after that of coz, I slept around 4am…so was kind of lazy and tired. 7pm, called P.Lin, she said she will be coming over to my place from Kulim. We will then fetch B.Nee and Mark (back from England for 2 weeks) and meet up with Gigi and Will. However, minutes after our conversation, she SMSed to inform she has dinner with director and boss, will meet us later. Meow said he saw half aeroplane (she might PPK – Pang Poay Kee – fly aeroplane). Grrr !! She better not PPK again, it has become her habit to PPK us so many times. I was half-boiling liao…she knew very well we had agreed to go out, moreover it was her who sent me a SMS yesterday inform she will meet at my house around 8pm, then to fetch B.Nee and later meet up with Gigi.

Fine, I might as well call B.Nee to see if she’s ready, maybe she can direct us the way. Aiya…her sis-in-law said she went to town wor…dunno what time back, so I left message for her to call me of Gigi once she is back. Waaa….darah sudah menggelegak (blood boiling), I begin to doubt on P.Lin’s arrangement. So I called Gigi. She too has no idea as she mentioned P.Lin made the arrangement.

Ok, damn hungry, Meow and I went to have dinner before pick up my hp from BJC. On the way to dinner, CYS called me. He was my heartthrob before I ‘pat thor’ (date) with my ex. Handsome guy, look a bit like Hong Kong star Marco Ngai Chun Kit. Then Esther, fellow contract worker in last company called to ‘kepo’ about my job status and also to invite me for Karaoke next week.

Picked up my hp, was in hurry, only managed to test it in the car while on the way to Gigi’s place. KNS !! Still the same, cannot even enter my PIN number, sudah auto-switched off. Tried few times, same…took out SIM card, put back battery…stupid phone auto-switched on. ‘Macam la saya tak cukup frust, ini memang menyampah, hatiku bagaikan bahang gunung berapi, CIS, memang sial !!’ Sorry, I was just cursing in Malay.

I called Elton which Meow nicknamed him Elton Gay John. No, not to scold him…calmly I explained the situation and asked for Penang’s Service Centre…he said to call that guy Benny. Ok, called Benny, he said tested ok wor…ha, ya right, then dun tell me it’s my SIM card problem. He asked me to bring back to him the next day. Fine, whatever…I got no time to contain my anger as I still have to call Gigi. Reached her place, at least, I felt better when I saw her cute doggie, Skipper. Skipper looks exactly like comic Tin Tin’s Snowy. Dunno how…Meow tested my hp, this time ok. Sigh !! Whatever, as long as can use.

We tried calling B.Nee again but still not in. Then called PPK girl, she said she never call B.Nee…and some more dare to say “ I thought you guys arrange ma, not meh?”
** Dish dish …someone, kill me or her pls !!** Breathe in…breathe out….I reminded her abt what she wrote in her SMS – “I will be at yr house at around 8pm tomorrow, then we fetch B.Nee. Gigi will meet us there at 9pm”. Now, u tell me…from what she typed, it’s very clear she has called B.Nee, right ? But NO wor…she did NOT wor…aiyoo…chia lat. Somemore wanna defend herself, talking louder than I. If not for our 14 yrs of friendship…I would’ve …ah…never mind…she will remember me when she wanna die…hopefully no more next time…everytime break off with lover, she will remember me. Once, midnite…SMSed me, say life is worthless la, screwed up la, then say “Bye Bye”…then when I call her coz thought wanna console her ma, but her hp switched off….I tell u, I was panic like a hen with missing chicks….please God, I hope your trial for her is complete. Dun think I wanna go through a third crazy and sleepless encounter like this. Ok, I am done complaining…of coz, she’s still my best friend. One of my best friends…got a lot of Best Friends ma.

Oh…back to the outing hor…at last, PPK made it to Gigi’s place…10.35pm, waa…changed of image, blue colour contact lenses…buey ta han. Wasting no time, off we went to Esplanade. She said too far, dun care, she’s not driving ma, so cannot complain. We had the yummy rojak and belitung (suck…suck…yummy). Too bad B.Nee and Mark couldn’t join us.

1am, back to Meow’s place. After shower, I was too tired to update my blog. I was reading others’ blog when my sis online, so chatted with her. Next thing I know, it was 3.30am and Meow was far far away in dreamland. I tried to sleep…actually I wasn’t sure if I slept at all.

Mar 10 – Hallelujah (Alleluia)

As expected, I had problem falling asleep. Last time I checked my watch, needles showed 3am but this time I did not dream about the interview.

I waited anxiously for my friend to pick me up. ICI (thin layer nya) on my face started melting, so I called him…on the way. He reached my place 30 mins later than the agreed time. Never mind, as long as he showed up. We were Shangri-La at 9.20am and the boss was there. She asked us to have breakfast first. How nice. After that, I was asked to sit with 3 of them, the boss, my friend (also ex-colleague) and a lady from Singapore (Finance). I was expecting some difficult questions bombarded towards me. Instead they started telling me the job roles/responsibilities and their expectations. I was trying to digest, taking notes, nodding head (very often, I must say I never nodded my head so many times in my life!), smiling, appeared very attentive and of coz I couldn’t dispense with the excitement I was feeling inside me.

Ya, Hallelujah (not ‘that one u take’ which is what it sounds like in Hokkien dialect). It means - Praise the Lord !! Very excited but I wouldn’t celebrate yet, not until the offer letter is signed ! The boss later shared with me on her working style (which I very much like and admire, direct and frank), expectations, and how to be firm and tough. I actually enjoyed meeting her and very much looking forward to be in her team. I must say the job is definitely challenging. I pray to God for His guidance and strength.

I was invited to join in lunch as she is treating my ex-boss’ team. My ex-team members were surprised to see me. But I am glad to see my ex-boss being supportive. He’s very handsome, by the way, but married. Wife also damn ‘cun’. Looks very much like Lee Sin Jie (Malaysian actress of ‘The Eye’), except that his wife is prettier, looks a bit like mixed and very fair. But too bad…this pair of leng chai and leng lui not available, so dun ask me ya. Ex-boss asked me to recommend friends who are proficient in M.Access and M.Excel (esp. on macros and queries). Immediately I thought of 2 very good candidate from my recent company. Told him I will check if they are interested.

Back home, I showered, called Y.Nee as she sent me SMS earlier asking how was the interview. After talking to her, called Meow. Then I went online to post what I didn’t manage to post last nite due to terrible Telekom line. ‘Siao siao’ (crazy) ‘wan’…this morning, ok wor. May be God wanted me to sleep early, hehehe.

I was still in high spirits although a little tired, so cancel my nap. I called one of the 2 guys. He’s interested for permanent position. He was desperate till trying for Customer Service…duh…it will be a waste of ‘yan choi’ with his superb Access and Excel skills. I asked if anyone said anything about my resignation…wow !! He said there was speculation that I did not tender my resignation and just ‘MIA’….and that Allstaff is planning to sue me….hahaha!! Crazy shit !! I was there with my cheque book in hand but the branch manager told me they will settle with me later. KNS !! And it was that Allan a.k.a. HSK- ham sup kuai (not my best pal la, although same spelling) who cooked up this to tarnish my image. Hah…what a cheap way to relief his grudge on me (I rejected few lunch / tea break dates). Never mind, at least I know there are some who believe me; they have been sending regards to me via SMS and also leaving messages on my Yahoo.

Called Elton regarding my hp…he promised the service guy will deliver it by today…I called him again when Meow came over…he said not sure, afraid I will pester him again, he gave me the service guy’s number. He said tomorrow !! Grrrr !!! Somemore told me my details all gone…aiyoo…my phonebook gone liao. Luckily I saved the photos in my PC liao. I dun even know whose num in or not in my SIM card coz I moved some to that hp. ‘Chia lat liao’!

Dinner at Supertanker. I was a bit talkative today…excited ma, not sure if Meow’s ears tired or not :P

He watched National Georgradhic while I read the newspaper and ‘watched’ him ;P Hehehe.

He left early today for bedminton…er I mean badminton while I surf channel. I got goose bumps when I saw this local girl dancing & singing on local channel – Audition 2. Eeee….damn ‘teruk’ (terrible) la. Made me ‘ta lang chan’ (quiver) for a while. Luckily my dinner was in progress of digestion…otherwise, curry mee all over the sofa.

Dad came down to smoke his pipe…walau eh, suffocating ler. Then I finally concluded why I felt weak esp on my toes, I had to ‘krit krat krat’ my toes every now and then, every time he smokes…the tobacco damn ‘powerful’. Aiyo…need to run, back to my room…and here I am…*type type type…gulp gulp gulp*….eh, Nescafe finish liao…hmm…cannot make another cup. Already exceeded my 3 cups per day limit coz just now I had Nescafe Ice at coffee shop. Ok lo, tomorrow maybe minus one cup :P

Ahh, Friday tomorrow, more time with Meow…and also meeting my school mates for dinner…and hopefully can get my hp back.

PS: KNS, blogger website down so long, just managed to login !

Mar 9 – Pray pray pray

I burned some calories today. Cleared away some of my old heels, washed some slippers, iron my new office wear. Trust me, ironing is a good workout. I felt like I just came out from sauna after I finished pressing the last piece.

After that, I showered…this is the 4th time I managed to use within 10 small pails (in Malay called Gayung, dunno what it’s called in English) of water for major shower. Today I used only 8 small pails including shampooing my hair, washing face with 2 types of facial wash (scrub & foam) and shower gel for body. Have to save water ma. Everyday read in newspapers, dam drying up, so must do my part la.

I then tried mix-n-match my office wear, cat-walking in my room, trying to figure out what to wear for my interview tomorrow morning. A little nervous this time as another manager from a different department will be interviewing me as well. Moreover, it’s not in the company, it will be at a hotel as they have a meeting later. My friend called when I was busy doing the catwalk between 2 different pairs of heels. He reminded me about tomorrow’s interview. I was still on the phone when Meow came, puzzled with my office wear…he went in for shower first.
I still cannot decide what to wear…leave it to my mood tomorrow morning. We had one piece of KFC each, which he brought over. He kena ‘wat’ to treat his new colleagues, left some, so me get to eat lo…although I still felt hungry.

Went to S.Square to get a hamper on baby stuff for Karen’s daughter, then back to his place as he needs to change his clothes. We didn’t have time for proper meal until after the visit. It was almost 11pm then, where else but Nasi Kandar. I had rice as I haven’t been taking enough nutrition for past few days, instant noodles were my main meals. Darn…gained back some calories ! :P

Meow looked tired…kesian. Nice of him to bring me to my friend’s place. I had a good time catching up with my ex-school mates. When Meow dropped me off, I wished it was still early. I missed him already…so much that I turned back, walked to his car…he thought I wanna tell him something, but I just wanted another kiss ;) Hehehe.

I quickly shower and browse through my resume…refresh a bit la…forgot what I wrote liao, mostly ‘upsell’ myself :P I guess they will be interested in my previous job roles and responsibilities. Hopefully they won’t ask for the reason I left my previous company, sien nya…but ask also never mind, I am Miss ‘Kangkology’ (cook up stories or should I say make it presentable and logical). Still, I need God’s help and some luck. Oh, thanks to Y.Nee for her wish, she wished me today…she thought it’s today…but nevermind, she has the ‘heart’, ‘kam siah che che’ (thank u very much).

Ok, 1am…I promised Meow I will sleep early tonite. Hopefully I can sleep…I always get excited and tend to dream about things that will happen next day. God bless me, bless all, Amen !

Sharks !! House phone line down again !!

Mar 8 – Letters to my Ex

I cleaned my room today but did not see any cockroach. Meow came over just as I finished mopping the parquet floor. Luckily he was a little late. I was supposed to feed the dogs as dad went to Ipoh to visit Uncle Me-eh (Ismail), his ‘si-foo’. Uncle Me-eh is in coma, according to dad, his colon is badly infected. But dad came back early, he said he would feed them. I was tired and hungry anyway. Dad bought Ipoh’s famous ‘Chow Liu’ (more or less like those in Yong Tau Foo but these are tastier).

Meow showered. I found my 2002’s diary while cleaning the room. He wanted to read…inside got 5 letters addressed to my ex, written by me in that year. I dun remember what I wrote. I went to shower while he read. After the 3rd letter, he was very quiet and said he wanna sleep. I am not sure if he was upset or what. I read the 5 letters myself when Meow was napping. Ya, u must be wondering why those letters are still with me if addressed to my ex.

As my ex is not a sentimental person, he does not keep things like this. So, rather than thrashing the letters to dunno where, he asked me to keep back.

There were no year marked, only month and date, but I mentioned about my sis’ convocation and ex being away for a month in Xiamen, China, so it was 2002 then. That was the 2nd year of my courtship with ex and we were already facing problems. I felt insecure and couldn’t deal with his ego. I missed him dearly when he was away, he never even said he missed or loved me for that one month…until the last week before he came back…even then, it was me who said it first. I was very upset and disappointed to the fact he wasn’t eager to meet me (I missed him and was counting the days to see him again) when he touched down in Penang. He told me that he was afraid his parents would say that he wasn’t a good son, only thinking of his gf. Most of the time, I was saddened by how he prioritise his family/career/sports/friends/football matches (TV & bettings) over me. 1..2..3..4..5…5 fingers, one hand liao…I told him, I came 6th in ranking. He never did deny, perhaps silence was his best defense. I even wrote him a poem in the last letter :

True love speaks of feelings
Sometimes words of nothing
It matters not with the beginning
Or how perfect is the ending
For our faith will keep us going
Stronger and ever – promising !

Hah !! I guess he never did appreciate my love. It’s all history now. I have Meow now. I’ve found my sentimental guy. But sometimes when I think of my past, I fear that it will repeat. I feel rather insecure nowadays…I am afraid that Meow might just leave me or tell me that he lost his feelings for me, just like my ex. I know I am silly to worry…but having gone thru such deep pain, I am not taking chances. I am having problem dealing with my insecurities…I think it kind of affects Meow as well. Hopefully he’s understanding enough.

We did not go out for dinner, just ate the ‘Chow Liu’. He left around 12 something. I missed him even before he left. He’s supposed to call me when reach home but till now still not yet leh…1.17pm he SMSed me, said still in coffee shop, will call me later. Hmm…coffee shop ? With who ??!! I wanted to call him immediately or ask who with but I did not. Instead, I calmly replied “Ok, take care”. I should trust him right. Ok, shall wait patiently and see what he says lo.

B.Nee’s back from England and she called from Gigi’s place. We will go visit Karen & C.Yong tomorrow nite to see their new born baby. Called P.Lin earlier, she’s ok to join. It was nice talking to her…more like swearing…dunno why, vulgar words keeping popping out whenever I talk to her, or sis or bro. Well, she told me her 2nd ex got problem with the partner…suggested to move in with her (free ma, no need to pay rental). I scolded her to her sanity, that her ex just wanna squeeze more $ out of her and take advantage of her again. She laughed and promised won’t let that happen, well, she better makes sure of that ! Otherwise I will faint again…every time she ‘sat luin’ or wanna commit suicide, it’s sleepless nites for me.

1.35am, Meow called. He told me he went to have a drink with his badminton friends and to pass them cigarettes (his granny gave him). Well, he’s quitting smoking. But he smoked one just now…it’s one per week now…I hope so…he was a regular smoker but willing to quit for me. :) He started quitting when we broke off earlier…I know he’s willing to sacrifice for me…and it warms my heart every time I think of it…of coz I would grumble a bit when I ‘smelled’ cigarette from his breath. Praying that he’s able to quit completely.

PS: I called IDP Education and confirmed they have received my form. I called Elton, my hp dealer, he promised that my new hp will be ok by tomorrow.