Sleep tight

Now this is the idea of what ppl usually mean 'sleep tight'

Good nite

My gal can't seem to wait for us. She went to bed first. Look how cosy she is.

Steamboat gathering

On Saturday Dec 8, Cheah Chee invited Peck Lin, Sherlyn, PL's teenage niece; Iris, Meow, Gavin and I to her house for a get together steamboat dinner. We were so hungry n the food very yummy that we forgot to take photo of the steamboat until we were done eating.

Cheah Chee's mom made very yummy fried sotong , spring rolls and pandan chicken. I wished I have four stomachs then. Everything taste good...even the Rojak for dessert.

Cheah Chee's elder son cried right after we left. He must enjoyed our company.
We should get together more often.

Necklace to match

Just done this necklace for colleague's mom to match with a bracelet I made earlier.
First time I made a non-choker necklace. Not easy...but not too please with the result.
Wished I was not so busy n tired with my work.
Hopefully she will like it.

Not the 1st time

It wasn't the first time, might not be the last time.. I cried at work yesterday. Too frustrated and stressed with nonsense people and requests.

Told Meow to go home first. After work I saw two cute cats...such a comfort. Wish can adopt them. The female one more manja like my Gal. The white male more aggressive when I tried to approach it. He wanted to play with me but I was afraid of it's sharp claws.
How I miss my Gal Gal.

Tired and stressed

Feeling sick like when I worked at Plexus more than a year ago. But not as bad yet.

That nausea and wanna vomit feeling every morning when I woke up.
It's like I have so many things to be done and rushing all the time. I can feel my heart doing marathon competing with my brain while my hands trying to catch up (24 hrs Numb and painful wrist not helping).

More things coming up. Almost in tears again today. There were moments I just felt weak...physically and lost energy to hold the mouse or type.

I feel bad lately I didn't even get to turn or look at people when they talked to me coz I am all always rushing or focusing on something important. Not to mention my bad mood n temper.

'Trees' testing my patience. Their intelligence level is sometimes worse than Six year olds. They can ask you funny and stupid questions over and over again, like three times within less than five minutes. Amazing!!

And more n more had graduated from 'Tai Chi' classes. These are the ones really get to my nerves.

Oh! How can I miss out those 'blur' or 'innocent' ones. They are the ones need to be extra cautious over. Anytime can put you on table or give u a few stabs from behind.

Every day is like war. Tomorrow another day at battlefield. Wish me luck. I dunno how much longer I can cope holding two roles. I need my break. I want to take leave. Tired nya.

1st time...

Fri Nov 16 was the first time I had fish cooked medium. I didn't know it was not well done. The chef asked if I wanted one. I gladly nodded.

Back to the table my with new sales team, I happily feasted on my pick of choices from the buffet tables.

When I cut into that piece of fish, I sort of panicked. I saw 50% raw meat. What should I do? Chuck it aside? That would be a waste. After a few seconds, I gathered all the courage I needed to swallow that sweet tender juicy meat (as what it should be for those who enjoy raw meat).

First bite was like okay...not too bad. Second bite...hmmm...I am not biting anything. Third one, I cut a bigger portion as I can't wait to finish it off. By the fourth bite, I was no longer 'eating' or rather, I was no longer myself. I sort of convinced my soul to leave my body that few mins. It was just me n my fingers plus my mouth doing some actions. Unfortunately, I couldn't finish it. It was mere 4 x 6 cm size of medium cooked fish. I had to chuck the 20% of leftover to the side of my plate n cleverly covered with two scallop shells.

This was worse than the time I tried raw salmon at Japanese restaurant. That time I just swallowed the whole raw piece of salmon after one chew of bite. Eweee ~~ !! I can't survive in stone age! At least it was Japanese food...I had reason to put all in one mouthful n swallow. So it wasn't that bad but definitely no more second time. At least not in this life.

I didn't eat much as I was not that hungry from the yummy chocolate brownies we had earlier in office celebrating Gavin's birthday.

But still managed to spoil my taste buds with some desserts n ice creams. It was also the first time I didn't have any coffee at a buffet. Not because I didn't want to but they didn't replenish it. Haha!

I had great time mingling with the team. It was great to see them getting rewards n certs for their hard effort. They even got shopping vouchers for top achievers selling most Ship Fast units which I now handle. Great to see motivation and appreciation by their management. Perhaps one day I might consider joining Sales team...maybe wait till my 'limits' at border.

Work has been pretty stressful and it sucks when feeling not appreciated. Even more discouraging seeing negative 'things' happening. I need more positive environment. Am tired with negative people. It's also tiring to comfort people when I myself needed peace of mind and to recharge myself.

Sometimes I just like to be left alone. Alone in my thoughts. My crowded thoughts...where I would pick a few to dwell in. Then I would feel motivated again and come back stronger.
Other times, I would just not think of  anything but bury myself with art...matching those shiny tiny beads gave me freedom and peace. Joy and satisfaction too. This is how I keep myself happy.

That night I got Haagen Daaz vouchers. Happy not because it's free but because I feel appreciated by the team. A nice and humble team. At least I feel better supporting them.

This is what God wants me to do. Face more challenges and know more people. Stretching my patience a bit more each time. You'll be surprise that you are more capable than you think you are.

Blessed

It's holiday. Deepavali. Yup ! A day away from stress at work.

Meow came over around 1.40pm..to fetch me to town.

Nope, not Gurney plaza. We seldom go there to avoid traffic jam. Moreover I dun quite enjoy shopping there.

We headed to our usual shopping mall - Prangin Mall. This is the place where you can shop at 3 different malls without having to move your car once it's parked (per entry rate)  ;-) cost saving ok.

Ample parking, lots of cute n new things, more offers and varieties plus our favourite hawker food stalls. But too bad Laksa moved to Air itam. Last month the food court on 5th floor closed due to increased rental fee. So the coffee shop tauke moved to a smaller lot. Hawkers had to split to different lots.

Today we found the yummy Chicken Rice on 3rd floor. Too bad no 'kiam chai boey' as only available on weekends. We were very full ..think the boss gave us more chicken n large bowl of soup.

Stuffed, we browsed by some boutiques, lots of handphone accessories shops. Wanted to buy Samsung S2's original battery for dad. No stock. Lucky thing coz later at home, dad told me he ordered from Queensbay Digi outlet.

I came across fancy and cute handphone's earphone plug. Went crazy over the hundred of choices. I asked If take more got discount bo? (Always and never be shy to ask!) Tauke gave me one free if I buy five. I already took three...so why not?

Then I saw a colourful phone cover. Oh my God! Care bears! Reminds me of my childhood. There I was chanting "Care Bears! Care Bears! Care Bears!"

The young teenager who served me must be thinking this aunty really cuckoo or trying to act cute. Haha! I don't care. I was too excited. I told him "I'm sure you dunno Care Bears". He smiled politely and said "Got heard before la". 

Heard? Hmmm...I think heard when I chanted just now kua. Anyway, I was too happy and can't wait to dress up my handphone.

Yeah! Meow stepped into Fushion Kitchen. We had ice blended fruit drinks. Like an excited young kid who just got new toys, I changed my hp cover and made Meow snapped photos of it and send to me..so I could upload and share my joy and excitement. Hehe! It's the trend ma. Anything new must upload and share right?

I love my cute Foxy earphone plug accessory. I love my new hp cover but I'll still use the old ones.

As usual, Dinner we went to 'Swatow kay' for chicken feet. Meow never fail to order his favourite Duck Porridge. I opted for the famous 'Charcoal' Fried Koay Teow. We were lucky to find empty table. Come to think of it...we were lucky all day long. Found carpark space both at shopping mall and dinner place. Everything went smooth. Meow wanted to buy fruits and we saw a shop at a corner on the way to dinner's place. I wanted to buy bread and it was right next to the coffee shop.
God loves us. Thank you God for such a relaxing and smooth day. Thanks Meow for spending time with me.

Please bless my dad for great health. Happy birthday Pa. Love you.

Chilling while Killing...

time. Another hour before 'Cold War' starts. Free tickets redeemed with Hong Leong GSC card.
Looks like we have no reasons not to date every weekend.

Thank God for Your Blessings

Dad is recovering well. Able to walk n drive slowly. Just the inflammation in his blood not subside and disturbing his sleep at nights. He sleeps day time. Weird?

I hope his conditions keep improving.
As for me...still same. Backache n neckache especially after I bend too much bathing the dogs.

I guess I will not be staying with Meow for a long time to come.

Strength and Patience

Changed n reshuffle bed n mattresses pattern 8 times in 2 days. I m at lost how to make him more comfortable n less pain. His legs keep having cramps n body ache...if only i can become robot to massage him whole night. Sit cannot ...lie down not comfortable..walk cannot..
Carry him up now n then. Think my bone cracked a bit more today cleaning n attending to him.
I still survive..thank God. I have to remind myself constantly not to make any hint of my own pain.

My pain level is 4 while dad's pain level is around 7 out of 10...so I must bear no matter how.

Advice to all...remember not to be afraid to disturb yr kids or those helping you..if you really need something or help. By keeping silent n tolerating the discomfort, u end up causing more pain to yourself and everyone else around u.
Because u were worried or afraid to ask or voice out, u suffer n torture yourself n ppl around u.
Please say n tell what u need. It solves the problem faster n more directly.
I feel guilty for raising my voice talking to dad. Felt bad he said sorry to me coz I was frustrated he didn't tell me he wasn't comfortable with the 'New' mattress.
I know he didn't want to disturb me but He kept groaning in pain n discomfort.
I asked almost ten times if the mattress ok...he said ok...slowly much later said dunno y not comfortable.
I had to drill n drill then only he agree to revert back to previous pattern num 7.
I know he worried for my back. But I can't control my frustration of him not telling me n suffering like that.
Sometimes I feel like crying but I must not. My pain is nothing compared to his.
I ask God to give me strength n patience.
I ask God to ease his pain. Let the bacteria be killed n my dad be healed.

Pests

I just started to fall asleep when I heard JJ my dog barked non-stop.
Went downstairs to check...just as I suspected, a long tailed was trapped.
Great!! Big rat...finally after I left the bait for two days...the hungry pest got fooled. Brought it in to put in toilet first. Will 'settle' tomorrow morning before going for physiotheraphy. Saw two other crawlies ...i hate n fear....sprayed with Ridsect till the pair of six leggeds flipped over gasping for air.

Ok time to Zzz.

Selfish

Men are selfish n ego. They only focus on pleasing themselves

Happy again but can it last ?

The day b4 Yesterday I was sad...n shocked ...how can someone be so selfish n childish ? But I m glad yesterday things calmed down n improved. I pray n thank God that happiness will be ongoing.

New Year 2012

I am still so sad n hurt.

Unappreciated and taken for granted.

I dunno how much longer I can hang on.

I now let HIM decide.

I wish to find happiness again.

I will now learn to love myself more.

I love you always.