Who's the bigger idiot?

I was an idiot... but then you are an idiot too.... and then I am the idiot again.... or are you the idiot after all?

Can we stop being the idiots? If only you wish to...and if I can do so....but I guess, after all, I am the biggest idiot... I should stop being the idiot...can I stop ? Do I have to go through all this? Is it necessary ? Will I be able to? What an idiot !

Your smile...means a lot to me

Last nite for the first time in the past few months, I saw you smiled. Yes, it was a quick one, lasted for one second. Even though you were trying to avoid something you dislike...but your smile really meant a lot to me.

I saw the person I used to know... I miss you. I wish to see you smile more.

Does time heal?

When they say time will heal...does time really heal? How much time is needed ? How long do we need to wait? How long can we wait?

I don't think time heals...to me, it's the situation that heals. U can wait forever but things may not change. But if you choose to do something and take action, then you will see changes...hopefully for better.

Often, we do not have patience. With time, we might lose patience and interest. Sometimes, we get tired of waiting...so we give up or look for something better. After all, we seek for happiness...so why torture ourselves and go through the pain when we can have something better?

Well... some things are just hard to explain. It's what your heart really want...though your mind says another thing. Only you YOURSELF know what you really want. Only you know what makes you happy. Go for what makes you happy, try your best knowing you will not regret...rather than guess the outcomes of the 'what-ifs' later.

However, after you have tried and tried but the result is not what we you desired, perhaps it's time to move on. Perhaps, it's not meant to be. Perhaps, you are not appreciated. Perhaps you've been taken for granted. Perhaps... you deserve something/someone better.

So...waste no more time...for time does not wait for us... happiness is in our hands... Let go of the past and look forward to a better tomorrow.

Learn to forgive those who do not appreciate us, those who betrayed us, those who cheated on us, those who used us, those who misunderstood us, those who were unkind to us...forgive them just as God forgive us. Be at peace and you will find yourself at higher level and much happier state.

God bless all who have bad intentions, may they change to have good intentions before it's too late. God bless all who have negative thinking, may they be more positive and not be too quick to judge or react. May God bless all with lovingness, happiness, kindness and success in the best / positive intentions. Amen.

I thought...

You thought u knew, I thought I knew....but we did not know....we assumed and then it's not what it is...it wasn't what it should be... life is so complicated.

Expectations...assumptions...but without proper communication, there's not gonna be conclusion. But if we are willing to take a step back and review ourselves and other's feelings...things and situations can be improved. The only question left is... are you willing ?

I am... and I pray that you will.

I miss you....

A LOT !!

A year passed...

...and I am still lost...depressed...trying my best to stay positive. Many things happened last few months...too much to cope, too much to handle.

No one's sure what's gonna happen next. I can only pray for better.

We human always take things for granted. We forget to appreciate, we like to assume and we have this bad habit thinking we are always right. Then it's too late when we realised...when consequences turned out the way we least expected.

However, there's still hope, if u are willing to make things better. Do not blame others, listen and try to understand why things happened, why they did that...why things didn't work. Most of the time, both parties are at fault. But neither willing to admit and always hoping the other would change.

Love should be unconditional. Love involves a lot of patience and understanding. I hope it's never too late for everyone to understand their other half and make things better.

I have several complicated n failed relationships... I guess it must be my attitude and behaviour. I hope I can redeem myself and make things better in future.

I can only pray to God now for his blessings, I just want happiness and good health. I pray the same for you and all.