Wow, I didn't realised I abandoned my blog for more than a month. Pai seh ! I was really busy with quarter end last month. Then right after that, had to go for dance competition the next day. I was deprived of sleep on the last week of Qtr end...some days I slept 2 hours, I think that week, I slept less than 20 hours a day.

Actually, I don't have to torture myself...but my role transitioned to another colleague since a quarter ago. I wanted to but I can't just let go like that n let the backlog numbers shoot high up. Since can't force, I have to do it lo. Every night have to monitor till late, working with production and calling Option/Shipping team to quickly pack & manifest those urgent orders, otherwise flights/vessle will be missed and there would be no second chance. Yup, it was indeed very critical. You have no choice unless you are the type who don't care or not responsible enough. In our team, everyone has to have two very important characteristics : Sense of Urgency & Sense of Responsibility. And with my added roles, I felt even more responsible. At the same time, stress levels added up coz need to prepare additional mgt reports every now and then.

I had hard time controlling my temper, you can't imagine at those stressful moments, you are like working in share market, every second counts, multi-tasking skill is already something you should have mastered to be in our team.

You have to understand your work processes well...there will be ppl pressing / squeezing more from you, trying to get things any possible way...if you are not prepared and on top of your numbers/situation/status, that's it, everyone will be looking at you...blames on you....criticise or even get more from you.

It was like fighting in a war, yet at the same time I had to train...very tiring and really testing my patience. I was sure I had raised my voice, scolded my sales or anyone...be it my colleague, management ppl, whoever...anyone who dared to suggest stupidity at those critical moments, anyone who dared to challenge policies set, anyone who made impossible requests, anyone who demanded status/report at the wrong timing, anyone who did not pay attention and kept asking, anyone who has shown lack of support or urgency, anyone who takes me for granted...I can go on and on...but I guess you know I was really frustrated and still managed to kept cool...by still smiling, joking and laughing at those ppl who got onto my nerves.

Well, that's work life. At the end of the day, you cannot be too calculative. I dunno about other ppl, for me, I work for my company, for my management, for my team. I am truly satisfied that my effort is contribution to company's objectives and goals, towards achieving CE. That is how I keep myself motivated.

With the team expanded, u can see some changes. Not everyone is as dedicated as the older members. I just hope and wish that everyone in the team is helpful and continue to keep the team spirit alive.