It's that time again. 4 times a year. Every Jan, Apr, July & Oct. I am like in prison. I have slave for 7 days a week for whole month. Standby 24x7.
Friends dun understand why I cannot meet them. Family dun get it why I am so busy. Beads biz kena postpone. Celebrations/gatherings have to reject or postpone.
Pain on shoulders, wrist, back, joints increased. Eyebags heavier, dark circles more obvious and most fear : Sick !! Ahhh...I always get sick during this month 3.
Tension, stress, sleepless nights (yes, I dun sleep sometimes), mood swing, lotsa nagging to myself, short temper (kesian Meow), etc.
Oh...and of coz....more Nescafe !
If u still have no idea what I am talking about, it's quarter end for my company fiscal year. I can't wait till Nov 4!! Somemore yesterday buta-buta kena slammed down on the phone by my sales...I helped her so what ? No thank you but threw her temper on me....kanasai, part shortage what can I do? Sigh !
Oh...not to forget, I won't be enjoying the long holidays next week. So Happy Deepavali and Selamat Hari Raya to those celebrating. I have to continue jadi hamba and slave round the clock.
I am trying not to take it too hard on myself this quarter. Dun care...my health more important.
(Say only...hehe...dunno can or not). So, wish me luck !
MIA for awhile first. Take care all.
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Sunday, October 08, 2006
I Love YOU
What do u do when someone close to you told u he/she wanna commit suicide on MSN ?
What can u do when that person is thousand of miles away from you ?
PANIC !! I was really panic, this is the second time I felt this way. First time was when my close pal told me she wanna end her life and then off her hp.
This time, it's much worse coz this is someone very very close to me. I was lost for awhile, head spinning and thinking hard what to do.
I picked up my hp and started dialing...no answer, try again, still no answer. I was told not to call, not in the mood to talk to me.
I had to continue with the chat, trying my best to console. Why is it so hard this time ? I thought I could do it almost effortlessly, that's what most of my frens said.
They said I am good at consoling them whenever they needed advise or an ear. But this time, it's not working well. I felt more n more pek cik !
I wish I could be there, right next to her. My tears couldn't stop rolling down my cheeks, all over my pillow, bed. I was sitting on my bed then.
God, I do not mind exchanging anything to make her happy. Take my life if you need to. I only have one of her.
I wish I could make her see there's more to life than what she thought. I may not understand the pain or difficulties she's going through, but I believe these are trials to make her stronger. I pray that she will see things more positively and understand happiness lies in your hands. If u feel sad, u need to do something to overcome it and not stay in the darkness, plan and make yourself happy. Sometimes, little things can make us happy. There's plenty ahead of us, take one step at a time. Don't always feel angry and create 'distance' among ppl around you. Cool down, things will seem easier when u are calm.
I hope you feel better, remember, no matter what happens, We love You, God Loves You, I love You and your son Loves U !! Now, u need to Love Yourself :)
What can u do when that person is thousand of miles away from you ?
PANIC !! I was really panic, this is the second time I felt this way. First time was when my close pal told me she wanna end her life and then off her hp.
This time, it's much worse coz this is someone very very close to me. I was lost for awhile, head spinning and thinking hard what to do.
I picked up my hp and started dialing...no answer, try again, still no answer. I was told not to call, not in the mood to talk to me.
I had to continue with the chat, trying my best to console. Why is it so hard this time ? I thought I could do it almost effortlessly, that's what most of my frens said.
They said I am good at consoling them whenever they needed advise or an ear. But this time, it's not working well. I felt more n more pek cik !
I wish I could be there, right next to her. My tears couldn't stop rolling down my cheeks, all over my pillow, bed. I was sitting on my bed then.
God, I do not mind exchanging anything to make her happy. Take my life if you need to. I only have one of her.
I wish I could make her see there's more to life than what she thought. I may not understand the pain or difficulties she's going through, but I believe these are trials to make her stronger. I pray that she will see things more positively and understand happiness lies in your hands. If u feel sad, u need to do something to overcome it and not stay in the darkness, plan and make yourself happy. Sometimes, little things can make us happy. There's plenty ahead of us, take one step at a time. Don't always feel angry and create 'distance' among ppl around you. Cool down, things will seem easier when u are calm.
I hope you feel better, remember, no matter what happens, We love You, God Loves You, I love You and your son Loves U !! Now, u need to Love Yourself :)
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