It’s been a while …. quite a long time in fact….somehow I kind of lost the mood to update my blog. When I first started to blog, I felt I had so much to express. Maybe b’coz at that time I have too much bottled inside me. I had things I couldn’t let go, I had worries, I couldn’t comfort myself, sometimes lost, sometimes undecided. So I guess blogging was the best way for me to release.
Now, I have so many things going for me. I have my dancing, my life…I am spending more time to relax, doing things I enjoy, catching up with friends once in a while my handicraft…kind of guilty that I sort of neglected my beads for about half year while I spend time improving my dancing skills. It’s my number 1 passion for now.
Of coz, I still am busy with my work but I have learnt to be more relaxed, to think more positively. I used to be upset when ppl criticized me or when things do not turn out the way I wanted. But I am glad that I have matured in my thinking. Sometimes I am quite surprised with myself, how I am able to provide comforting words and motivation to friends who needed an ear or guidance. I am simply thankful for this gift.
Last quarter end, I was very busy with work, it was that busy moments where I had issues, backlogs, boss chasing for reports, etc…when I received a call from someone whom I least expected. That call was not someone saying hello. My colleagues could hear me changing from laughing tone to serious tone. Immediately after the call, I was able to adjust myself to normal mode, still smiling and back to work. If this was to happen few years ago, I would have exploded. But nope, I kept my cool because I know I am not guilty and I somehow pity those who have nothing better to do than gossip about the untruthful things.
You people who are too free and with nothing better to do, go ahead and accuse or spread rumours. I am fine…in fact, I was surprised with myself for being able to laugh it off…you can raise your voice at me, point fingers at me and I don’t give a damn. I am not guilty of all those accusations and I am not free to bother about all those nonsense stuff. My workload was more than enough for me and to be in that hectic situation and hearing your accusations and yadaa yadaa….haha…boy, I was really surprised why you would think I am still interested to talk about things that does not matter to me anymore.
If you have not done it you shall not be worried about it….it’s ppl’s choice…their mouth…we cannot control them, so let them be. As long as I know I am of clear conscience, God is always with me.
I have always prayed for your happiness. I sincerely wish you find the right one. It doesn’t matter if we cannot remain as friends. It matters not what you think of me, it matters not what others think of me…what matters most is what I think of myself and same for you, you are who you are, believe in yourself and always have positive mindset. You are in control. Be happy always.
May God bless those who are still in blur…lead them to the right path, comfort them and give them peace. Thank you for Your Blessings, Amen !
Regardless....sincerely and always will be your friend.
