Chilling while Killing...

time. Another hour before 'Cold War' starts. Free tickets redeemed with Hong Leong GSC card.
Looks like we have no reasons not to date every weekend.

Thank God for Your Blessings

Dad is recovering well. Able to walk n drive slowly. Just the inflammation in his blood not subside and disturbing his sleep at nights. He sleeps day time. Weird?

I hope his conditions keep improving.
As for me...still same. Backache n neckache especially after I bend too much bathing the dogs.

I guess I will not be staying with Meow for a long time to come.

Strength and Patience

Changed n reshuffle bed n mattresses pattern 8 times in 2 days. I m at lost how to make him more comfortable n less pain. His legs keep having cramps n body ache...if only i can become robot to massage him whole night. Sit cannot ...lie down not comfortable..walk cannot..
Carry him up now n then. Think my bone cracked a bit more today cleaning n attending to him.
I still survive..thank God. I have to remind myself constantly not to make any hint of my own pain.

My pain level is 4 while dad's pain level is around 7 out of 10...so I must bear no matter how.

Advice to all...remember not to be afraid to disturb yr kids or those helping you..if you really need something or help. By keeping silent n tolerating the discomfort, u end up causing more pain to yourself and everyone else around u.
Because u were worried or afraid to ask or voice out, u suffer n torture yourself n ppl around u.
Please say n tell what u need. It solves the problem faster n more directly.
I feel guilty for raising my voice talking to dad. Felt bad he said sorry to me coz I was frustrated he didn't tell me he wasn't comfortable with the 'New' mattress.
I know he didn't want to disturb me but He kept groaning in pain n discomfort.
I asked almost ten times if the mattress ok...he said ok...slowly much later said dunno y not comfortable.
I had to drill n drill then only he agree to revert back to previous pattern num 7.
I know he worried for my back. But I can't control my frustration of him not telling me n suffering like that.
Sometimes I feel like crying but I must not. My pain is nothing compared to his.
I ask God to give me strength n patience.
I ask God to ease his pain. Let the bacteria be killed n my dad be healed.

Pests

I just started to fall asleep when I heard JJ my dog barked non-stop.
Went downstairs to check...just as I suspected, a long tailed was trapped.
Great!! Big rat...finally after I left the bait for two days...the hungry pest got fooled. Brought it in to put in toilet first. Will 'settle' tomorrow morning before going for physiotheraphy. Saw two other crawlies ...i hate n fear....sprayed with Ridsect till the pair of six leggeds flipped over gasping for air.

Ok time to Zzz.

Selfish

Men are selfish n ego. They only focus on pleasing themselves

Happy again but can it last ?

The day b4 Yesterday I was sad...n shocked ...how can someone be so selfish n childish ? But I m glad yesterday things calmed down n improved. I pray n thank God that happiness will be ongoing.

New Year 2012

I am still so sad n hurt.

Unappreciated and taken for granted.

I dunno how much longer I can hang on.

I now let HIM decide.

I wish to find happiness again.

I will now learn to love myself more.

I love you always.

A Blessed Christmas

I am trully blessed and surrounded with nice people, great friends and family members.
This Christmas indeed was so much greater than I expected. I thought I couldn't enjoy at all, but I did (although inside I still feel a lil' heavy n stressed with my job).

Went to mom's place before meeting bro.

I had a great time with my bro, Sis-In-Law, nephew Wilfred together with Meow at Ingolf's Kneipe. Initiallly, we went to Vintage Bulgaria. We were early (6pm), it was unplanned as my bro called me last minute to meet up at Island Plaza. So, we thought of having something before I meet up my dance gang for Shawn's Farewell (to US for 6 months - job training) cum Christmas celebration.

The place look cozy, I mean... Vintage Bulgaria, unfortunately, for Christmas, they only have set meals of 2 choices. And we cannot order ala-carte. So, we apologised to the waiter and went next door to Ingolf instead. We had to sit at the counter and all tables were reserved. No problem. Meow and I shared a cream soup and Fruits Salad.

Shared with Koko on our job challenges and stress. Am surprised and glad that Wilfred talked more matured now. He's very active in badminton and wished for a branded Racket....cost from 3 figures, up to 4 figures...good luck to his dad, hahaha.

7pm, we meet at 'No Eyed Deer' - another nice, warm and cozy restaurant. Food is great too.
I ordered Seafood Platter while Meow had the Jumbo Vienna Sausage Set. Nice. Pao Siang ordered British Fish Pie Set, taste good too. I tried Peter's Char-grilled Aromatic Duck Fillet Set nice also. Liana ordered Lamb but I didn't try. Susu, Shawn, Tracy and her daughter seated further, so a bit difficult to communicate as we were seated with few tables joined. Mel and Joshua shared Jumbo Vienna Sausage. There are a lot more yummy sets to choose from the menu.

Peter entertained her boy with his new sophisticated 'gasing' while the rest of us were busy with either the cameras or conversations.

We took some photos. Tracy's daughter also chipped in as the nite's photographer. So cute of her to snap individual's photo. We had group photo with our cute and delicious Gingerbread man made by Mel (Mei Shya) and again with our presents after the gift exchange session.

After dinner, we adjourned to Straits Quay (10pm) - a new shopping mall with long stretch of shop lots at Tanjong Tokong. More photos again... Meow and I then proceed to his friend's house for BBQ gathering, reached there slightly after 11pm. Had more food....not much la, I had 1 burnt chicken wing, few meatballss and short sausages. The guys played card while Meow watched them. I watched Astro and then stared at an interesting art piece on the wall...a modern abstract. Very captivating...at first glance, I saw an office overlooking a big glass pane, however...when I look longer....I see a woman waiting for someone at a harbour, a bottle of wine, a glass and a cigarette to indicate the long waiting moment. Too bad I didn't snap the photo. I could stare at it all day.

We left at 2am, I was getting tired as I slept late the nite before, or should I say morning (5am till 11am).

I am glad I had quite an interesting and full day of Christmas, full of events and friends around me.

So blessed and Praised the Lord.

Space on the Floor + MP4...

Today out of the blues... I suggested to Meow I wanna follow him to badminton court...a place where I would not be seen usually, not in so many years. Why ? Well, it's stuffy (no wind, no air-cond). I can suffocate eh.

Well, I got myself equipped, not with badminton racquet but a book and my MP4 player. Haha !

2 hours there...1st 15 mins... I munched away chips and Chickadee...hungry ma, no time to eat dinner. Next 20 mins...listened to my favourite songs.... damn, I then realised 80% of my songs are Rhumba songs. I was dancing in my mind...slowly my shoulders and head started to move, bit by beat...haha.

What else? I stood up...did very minor figure 8 moves....then next I knew...Time Step...and there I was... like a crazy gal... dancing away at a corner of the badminton court, totally ignorant to the ppl around. I had a good 45 mins 'workout'. I was sweating more than most of his colleagues. I wished I had brought along spare clothes to change and my ballet shoes (which I wear for practices - when my feet hurt).

I felt good coz I get to dance to my favourite songs. But the price for it? Blisters on my feet, ouch!

It's so hard to refrain from dancing when u see space on the floor, esp. wood parquet.... :P

Oops! I forgot I should rest for at least few days after my bone-setting session last nite ! Whole body's alignment - out.

When hope is frail...

When u are down to almost zero or negative...do not give up.

As long as there's hope...there will be changes. All you have to do is give it another chance.

A close friend told me....'when u had been in bad luck...but you believed in miracle.. the mircales doesn't exist.. what existed was your belief and your action that makes miracle possible'

I've learnt that patience and forgiveness can change things for better.

Thanks so much my dear friend, you are indeed the a Master of Positive Mind.