I thought...

You thought u knew, I thought I knew....but we did not know....we assumed and then it's not what it is...it wasn't what it should be... life is so complicated.

Expectations...assumptions...but without proper communication, there's not gonna be conclusion. But if we are willing to take a step back and review ourselves and other's feelings...things and situations can be improved. The only question left is... are you willing ?

I am... and I pray that you will.

I miss you....

A LOT !!

A year passed...

...and I am still lost...depressed...trying my best to stay positive. Many things happened last few months...too much to cope, too much to handle.

No one's sure what's gonna happen next. I can only pray for better.

We human always take things for granted. We forget to appreciate, we like to assume and we have this bad habit thinking we are always right. Then it's too late when we realised...when consequences turned out the way we least expected.

However, there's still hope, if u are willing to make things better. Do not blame others, listen and try to understand why things happened, why they did that...why things didn't work. Most of the time, both parties are at fault. But neither willing to admit and always hoping the other would change.

Love should be unconditional. Love involves a lot of patience and understanding. I hope it's never too late for everyone to understand their other half and make things better.

I have several complicated n failed relationships... I guess it must be my attitude and behaviour. I hope I can redeem myself and make things better in future.

I can only pray to God now for his blessings, I just want happiness and good health. I pray the same for you and all.

Sometimes I feel so lost...

Oh dear! What a shame…almost forgotten and abandoned my blog. Been such a long time and it’s almost year end now. In fact, it’s going to be Quarter end again for me at work. A lot of things have changed (at least it seems so in my mind) but perhaps to others, I am still the same, still always busy with work and dance. Still crazy and cheerful, still tired n moody at times, still forgetful and sleepy most of the time….ya…still same old me.

So many things…but I cannot spill them out. I’m having this very mixed feelings. I just wonder, when you are happy and yet you are unhappy, what does it make u feel ? Confused? I guess so. But not really, I am pretty sure, just that I’m afraid or maybe I want to observe longer…buying time, being cautious perhaps…I cannot explain. I wish to but I just can’t ! Only can pray for His Guidance…Lord, pls show me your ways, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and tach me, for you are God my Saviour, and my hope is in your all day long. (Psalm 25:5, NIV) Amen!

Happy New Year

It's been so long....so so long that I hardly remember to blog liao. Getting lazy and busy as well. Not to say...I dun even read blogs.

So, new year...some had made new resolutions but me ? Hmm...nah... I dun and had never made any. I tend to act more on my feelings and wants (that explains on many of my unnecessary purchases, my dad complained I bought too many sandals, ueek~~!). Oh...not forgetting the dozens of clothes... (still can wear and some, hopefully can wear again - provided I manage to shed off few more kilos in .....5 yrs time?)

Hahaha....I doubt I ever can...but last year wasn't bad. I did shed off some kilos, and indeed, some clothes had waited like 4 yrs for me. Haha, was glad I didn't throw / give them away. Normally, I dun buy clothes according to trend...so still can recycle la. But seriously, I need to housekeep my cupboard again (the last time was last month). Now the doors can hardly close. But..really sayang those clothes...I think I need to give them away and come to reality I own way too many clothes which I dun wear anymore. Then, I will have more space, more room for MORE clothes, muahahahaha ~~!!

Now I need to find time to clear it...so can shop :)

But wait....when to shop ? Quarter end again and I need support during CNY...so so no mood.

Duh...

Sweet Mango

I have never seen my home's mango tree like this b4.

So many flowers....

Thanks to Grandpa who planted this tree 20 yrs ago.

After Quarter end...I just wanna relax...

Sushi King RM 2 Promo is back again

Mark your Calendar : Oct 13 - 16th (WM) and Oct 20 - 23 Oct (EM)

Rainy Day

Guess which pair belong to me?

Sincerely Yours

It’s been a while …. quite a long time in fact….somehow I kind of lost the mood to update my blog. When I first started to blog, I felt I had so much to express. Maybe b’coz at that time I have too much bottled inside me. I had things I couldn’t let go, I had worries, I couldn’t comfort myself, sometimes lost, sometimes undecided. So I guess blogging was the best way for me to release.

Now, I have so many things going for me. I have my dancing, my life…I am spending more time to relax, doing things I enjoy, catching up with friends once in a while my handicraft…kind of guilty that I sort of neglected my beads for about half year while I spend time improving my dancing skills. It’s my number 1 passion for now.

Of coz, I still am busy with my work but I have learnt to be more relaxed, to think more positively. I used to be upset when ppl criticized me or when things do not turn out the way I wanted. But I am glad that I have matured in my thinking. Sometimes I am quite surprised with myself, how I am able to provide comforting words and motivation to friends who needed an ear or guidance. I am simply thankful for this gift.

Last quarter end, I was very busy with work, it was that busy moments where I had issues, backlogs, boss chasing for reports, etc…when I received a call from someone whom I least expected. That call was not someone saying hello. My colleagues could hear me changing from laughing tone to serious tone. Immediately after the call, I was able to adjust myself to normal mode, still smiling and back to work. If this was to happen few years ago, I would have exploded. But nope, I kept my cool because I know I am not guilty and I somehow pity those who have nothing better to do than gossip about the untruthful things.

You people who are too free and with nothing better to do, go ahead and accuse or spread rumours. I am fine…in fact, I was surprised with myself for being able to laugh it off…you can raise your voice at me, point fingers at me and I don’t give a damn. I am not guilty of all those accusations and I am not free to bother about all those nonsense stuff. My workload was more than enough for me and to be in that hectic situation and hearing your accusations and yadaa yadaa….haha…boy, I was really surprised why you would think I am still interested to talk about things that does not matter to me anymore.
If you have not done it you shall not be worried about it….it’s ppl’s choice…their mouth…we cannot control them, so let them be. As long as I know I am of clear conscience, God is always with me.

I have always prayed for your happiness. I sincerely wish you find the right one. It doesn’t matter if we cannot remain as friends. It matters not what you think of me, it matters not what others think of me…what matters most is what I think of myself and same for you, you are who you are, believe in yourself and always have positive mindset. You are in control. Be happy always.

May God bless those who are still in blur…lead them to the right path, comfort them and give them peace. Thank you for Your Blessings, Amen !

Regardless....sincerely and always will be your friend.